people stay in cagayan... (mukanta ang nakabalo)

hello cee dee oh. i miss you so. you've changed so much in the span of five years. i feel like such a stranger in my own hometown... we don't live in our ancestral home anymore. we sold the house almost two years ago. i miss my old bedroom. i miss mom's garden. heck, i even miss our fishmonger neighbors! everything is just so different now... the streets and the neighborhood aren't so familiar, and the people too!
the new house is nice. homey. i love it that it is so cozy. i love it that i came home to the smell mom's newly baked goodies. i love it that we're all together for Christmas for the first time after 5years. i hope The Toph was here to experience home. at least there is a home, i keep reminding myself. but today, i got to see old faces and somehow, i got that sense of cagayan de oro back. i feel like i belong again. it does feel so wonderful to be back. oh, what'd i give to stay!

for some reason...

wala lang. naalala ko nanood ako ng tv, napahinto ako sa isang channel kung san pinapalabas ang live from abbey road... napahinto ako dahil sa kanta. live. nakapanindig balahibo. kanta pala yun ni alanis morissette. perfect.

Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face

Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder

How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet

Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud

I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem, why are you crying

Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are
If you're perfect

dang it!

after a very long time, i got to see dang again!
i was lucky i'm on cee vee gee hiatus ^_^
happy. just like the good ol' days.

i have a lot of nothing to say.

the mummy.

things i have in the closet

(just shared this with kae. just need to document it. haha!)
i will always be emo.
even if it is just a closet thing. hihihi
:)

back to the CGY!

I can NOT wait to spend Christmas and New Year in Cagayan de Oro!!!

hope the toph can come with us, sana pwede mag leave. :)

sana din may pera nako para makapagbook na ng ticket... habang mura pa. hehe.

after ondoy.

thank you to those who sent monetary assistance -- auntie lu, veekee, and anne marie. we were able to buy food and other necessities. it was able to get us by and we still have something left for future use (for the next disaster, perhaps?) i really, really appreciate it. ♥

the house is clean now. thanks to ate carmen and her goons. thanks to gemma, too. some shit needs to be sorted out but yea, maybe later.

steve is alive. he may have lost a couple of limbs but yes, he survived. :)

my shelves had given up. i have no more books to store on them anyway. i will miss my books. i would have to begin booksale scavenger hunts again to find king, carcaterra, and harris. but like what daddy said -- don't worry about your things, you can always replace them. what's important is, you're all okay. so yea, i'm gonna have my collection back soon (hopefully).


God is always good to me. thank You for always watching over me and my family. i still have it good. i cried watching the news. i'm so grateful for this life. i pray that the people who were devastated by this calamity will be given strength to start from scratch. i pray they will still have a reason to smile, to still be inspired despite all the ruckus and the destruction the typhoons had caused... afterall, hope springs eternal. ^_^ oh and yea -- bless the hearts of those who continue to help out the victims. mabuhay kayo!

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are they who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.
Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the pure of heart, for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called children of God.
Blessed are they who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Gospel of St. Matthew 5:3-10

stranded!

STEVE IS FLOATING!
news from my sweets. omg. steve, my trusty fridge! i hope he did not drown, oh please be alive when all this shit's goin to be over!

OUR HOUSE IS DESTROYED!
my books :( my ps2 :( the dvds too! :'(
the tv got saved. and yea, you heard about steve...

but everyone is fine, thank goodness.
more importantly, HALLE is fine!

i told aries it is the end of the world. not true, he says 2012 pa daw.
this is like, what? the third time i got stranded at the office within my 5-year stint at the ceeveegee. milenyo. frank. and what's the name of this crazy bagyo?
thank you to marieness, tim and om g. being stranded was not too bad.

i wanna go home. *sniff*

the toph.

All the man I am
You are the reason for me, you help me understand
Ill be your shelter from the rain that never ends
Girl, youve always got a friend in me

All the love we had
I shouldve known our love was older than the past
Throwing my life away on songs I never heard
Just the speaking of a special word
I made you die inside but you loved me

And dont believe the world
No, the world cant give us paradise
When you make your love to me
Til I just could not see the light

As long as I got you
As long as I got me
As long as we got you and I

I wont let you down
No better love will be there when you turn around
Ill be living for you till the ocean turns to sand
There will never be any man
Could love you just the way that I love you....

So dont believe the world
No the world cant give us paradise
In the eye within the storm
When I just could not make it through the night

As long as I got you
As long as I got me
As long as we got you and I

So dont believe the world
No the world cant give us paradise
In the eye within the storm
When I just could not make it through the night

As long as I got you
As long as I got me
As long as we got you and I

♥

reklamador... dor... dor...

andami kong reklamo.
as in.
gusto kong gumawa ng litanya ng mga reklamo ko sa mundo.
di ko alam san ako magsisimula.
nakakasawa shet.
sige hwag na muna ako magsalita.
bigyan pa natin ng onti pang panahon.
pag di na matiis...

Intolerance.

I don't want to be hostile. I don't want to be dismal. But I don't want to rot in an apathetic existence either. See, I want to believe you, and I want to trust and I want to have faith to put away the dagger. But you lie, cheat, and steal. And yet I tolerate you. Veil of virtue hung to hide your method while I smile and laugh and dance and sing your praise and glory. Shroud of virtue hung to mask your stigma as I smile and laugh and dance and sing your glory while you lie, cheat, and steal. How can I tolerate you? Our guilt, our blame, I've been far too sympathetic. Our blood, our fault. I've been far too sympathetic. I am not innocent. You are not innocent. No one is innocent. I will no longer tolerate you. Even if I must go down beside you. Because, No one is innocent.

http://www.toolband.com/album/lyrics/undertow.html

Truth, The Bitter Truth

how can you go so low?!

ganun pala yun. hindi ko alam. pasensya.

5 years in the cee vee gee.

burnout!
[insert soundtrack here: 5 years, sugar hiccup]

tyson

Sakit ng tenga ko.
Kinagat mo kgabi
04-Sep-2009 08:16

Dami ko kagat. Itinakbo mo pa sasakyan! Tsk. Iba ata epekto sayo pag hard ang inum.hehe
04-Sep-2009 10:01

crazy shit. super dooper z0ned out ako, para akong nang hyperspace bonus at nilamon ng wormhole sa kun san mang kalawakan!

naalala ko tinakbo ko sasakyan, for some reason di ko alam pano imaneho yung oto ni aries, matik ata yun ewan ko ba or talagang sobrang lasing lang ako at di ko na alam pano mag drayb. itinakbo ko ang sasakyan, sakay ko sa harap yung chik ni aries. naknamf! buti walang bumangga samen. buti di ko nabangga yung sasakyan. buti ayos lang kami. buti di ako binangasan ni aries nung nahabol nya kame. naiimagine ko ung mukha ni aries nun. siguro galit pero alam nya di ko alam pinaggagawa ko. lasing ako. thank you mehn at di moko binigyan ng uppercut sa peys!

so syempre, si joe na nag walkout for some reason, kinailangan kong itext para ibalita mga kagaguhang ginawa ko. namiss nya ang aking pagka psycho.

Hahaha pramis? angkulet.nkakatawa un a.anusbe ni tatang?ngmadali ak my pupnta s haus kelngn mauna ak e.
04-Sep-2009 15:03

Bwahahahaha. Ako dmerecho pa inuman pguwi.kaya nga natxt pa kta e.haha nkaktwa ka wild.
04-Sep-2009 15:23

Hahaha.nayare ka ni empoy!
04-Sep-2009 15:29

Haha eto ngrep na c g0ta.ntatwa syo.snbe dn tngkol s tenga nya.hahaha
04-Sep-2009 15:39

ayun.

Dami ko pantal. Galing sa mga kuko mo. May pasa ako sa braso, kinagat mo. Grabe.hehe
04-Sep-2009 15:51

kakahiya, diba?

Wla ka nman cnabing nakakahiya. Pag hinahatak mo lang ako, nakabaon mga kuko mo kya pantal pantal ü
04-Sep-2009 16:35

super nakakahiya. i texted genes, asked her if i hurt her or said anything that was inappropriate last night and i said was sorry.

Wala naman.ü it was all fun last night.ü hehe
04-Sep-2009 16:35

parehos silang sinabi ni aries. "wla problema dun sa kagabi. It's all fun."

nawalan ako ng ulirat. ang maalala ko lang, umalis si joe, hinabol ko pa siya sa labas, nakasalubong ko si ogang (isa sa mga goons kela ate carmen) nagpasama ako sa kanto para hanapin at pabalikin si joe kaso dehins ko na xa nakita. pabalik na kami ni ogang sa bahay nang makasalubong namin si aries at genes. nasa sasakyan na sila, pauwi na ata. ewan ko basta the next thing i remembered was nasa sasakyan nko ni aries, pabalik na kme sa bahay. ipinarada ni aries ang sasakyan sa tapat ng tindahan ni ate carmen. basta for some reason, kami nalang ni genes sa loob. nagkwentuhan kame. siguro madami kaming napag usapan pero iilang parts lang maalala ko. basta sinabi ni genes na si aries lang daw inaantay nya, takot daw sa committment or something like that. i'm pretty sure i remembered that right.

yeah, there was that conversation. and ayun, from the backseat lumipat ako sa driver's seat. pinaandar ko sasakyan ni aries. hindi ko alam bakit talaga. siguro si genes lang ang nakakaalam. ewan ko kung gano kalayo inabot namin. siguro di naman kalayuan kase nahabol pako ni aries nung di ko na alam pano idrive ung sasakyan. tas yun. that was the last thing i remembered.

i don't remember how i got home, how i got to my bed and what time i went to sleep. basta ayun nagising nalang ako na super gutom, masakit ang sikmura. 3am na. 12mn shift ko. text kagad ke boss. text kela jerwin. hindi ako makakapasok, may lagnat. sumuka ako ng napakaacidic. sagwa. nagchowking breakfast kami ni toph at halle. kinwentuhan ako ni topher, para nga daw akong gago. kung anuanong shit pinagsasabi ko bago matulog.

san na yung ano, puta kinabalu? kunin mo ung puta kinabalu!

hell, even the lucid me would not understand what i meant that time.

eto pa, sinasabi ko daw "OI UNG SURGICAL FEE NI ARIES BAYARAN NYO!"

okaaaaaaaaay. ang weird. anuanong shit nga pinagsasabi ko.

oh, and this just in: nakarami daw ako ng halik kay genes!

crazy, crazy shit. seriously.

i wish i remembered!

POTA KINABALU, DUN NA!

I HAD SO MUCH FUN THAT I COULD NOT REMEMBER.
FUN TIMES! ^_^

maraming salamat kina aries, joe, genes at syempre pa -- ke empoy na dumale saken! yare! :D

talasalitaan

opisina:
haluhalongkunganuanongmalabongshit.

one day, one room.

EVE: [calming a bit] Your story. Is it true?

HOUSE: [sighs] True for somebody.

EVE: But not for you.

HOUSE: [getting up] These things happen. Happened to somebody. What do you care if it happened to me?

EVE: They're not in this room.

HOUSE: [loudly] No! They're out there! Doctors, lawyers,... postal workers! Some of them doing great, some of them doing lousy! You're gonna base your whole life on who you got stuck in a room with?

EVE: [stubborn] I'm gonna base this moment on who I'm stuck in a room with. It's what life is. It's a series of rooms. And who we get stuck in those rooms with adds up to what our lives are.


House, MD Season 3 Episode 313: One Day, One Room
http://www.twiztv.com/scripts/house/season3/house-312.htm

the ladies room here at G5 is so conducive for...
...moving bowels.
hihihi :)

parang atin ang gabi

nanood ako ng sugarfree kagabi. maayos naman. 'di naman masyadong mataas expectations ko for the night, natuwa lang ako kase i had fun. magaling silang mag-live. the concert was so intimate. yung pwesto ko sobrang lapit sa stage, kung may kakaladkarin si ebe pataas, ako ung sobrang pwdeng pwde kaya sobrang kabado ako. wahahha. conscious. ilang beses kami nag eye-to-eye ni ebe. yikee!


pagkatapos ng sugarfree, i went straight to blueridge. marc's despedida. he's gonna be exiled to malaysia. also, celebration na rin ng employment ni toph. inuman til sunrise. fun times. masaya din. the best fun i had at blueridge since ice's birthday. hehe. chex brought gin premium, sarap kahit straight, no chaser. hihi ^_^



andami ko pang gustong sabihin. pero sige, next time nalang.

lovingly yours, kuya.

Ryan

are you my cute sister that i love?

^^

4:17pm

Donnadelle

aww

yea

>:D<

4:17pm

Ryan

hurray!

hhehehe

don

4:18pm

Donnadelle

kmsta na imong pamati?

ok na u?

4:18pm

Ryan

ok na me..

don

tsada ayo akong damgo

4:21pm

Donnadelle

unsai damgo nimo?

share

4:21pm

Ryan

kita duha nasa damgo

short dream actually

4:22pm

Donnadelle

o

4:22pm

Ryan

suroy2x ko sa park..ambot unsa to name

4:22pm

Donnadelle

tapos?

4:22pm

Ryan

then sa layo, i saw this person sa bench naglingkod

well nkatalikod sya

then ako gi duolan

na surprise ko.. ikaw diay to...

ni tapad ko nimo..then we both smiled

smile nimo na na miss gyud nako og maau..

then gi akbayan daun taka..

then wala na daun

pasabot lang na i really miss you..

4:25pm

Donnadelle

aww

kahilakon ko

i miss you so much kuya

karemember ka sa akong mata sa imong damgo?

sad ba akong mata?

4:26pm

Ryan

nope

happy..

well little eyebags

hahahha

basta happy ka don

4:27pm

Donnadelle

nice

4:27pm

Ryan

its like 3 or 4 years ago na hitsura nimo..

4:27pm

Donnadelle

hehe

4:27pm

ponstan 500

Tequila is good. naparami ako kagabi, di naman nalasing pero putafuck di ako hinahangover ng ganito. anong oras na? 3pm? tas ansakit pa rin ng ulo ko. nalalasahan ko pa din ang tanginang tequila. ang dry ng lalamunan ko, nakailang gallon na 'ko ng tubig. may drugs ata yung pakenangshet na tequila na yon.

emotion sickness.

CTRL-ALT-DELETE!

i. just. can't. quit. you.

911

Cab nko. w8. Rescue kita

kae 08-08-09 17:07

i was almost teary-eyed then. i was trying to explain why i had a couple of smokes. i just quit smoking and it is never easy. i used to smoke more than 2 packs a day... now i can manage NOT to smoke AT ALL for a full 24hours. it's just difficult for me when i drink and DON'T smoke (it kills me. makes me all nauseous)

anyway, i get it that i don't have to explain myself. i don't have to justify why i had to hide to have a couple of cigs. it's still wrong. no matter which angle you look at it. i knew your intentions were good. everything was for my own good. all i was asking for was understanding. going cold turkey is never easy. you did not have to judge me.

"what do you want us to do? congratulate you?"

i never quit smoking for anyone.

so, fuck you and thank you kae.

heartbreak hotel

Remembering
Yesterday at 11:36pm
(a repost from bff ice prudente)

I read an excerpt from this wonderful writer named Karen Kunawicz. Back then I was in 2nd year college and I remember the punch-in-the-gut feeling I got when I read it: "Destruction isn't always as noisy as bombs exploding. Sometimes the ultimate catastrophes are as quiet as a feather falling on the floor of a Zen monastery. No one else can really hear your heart breaking except you."

Even with the last sentence, I was able to get what she poignantly meant to express.

I copied the whole article from a site Google referred me to when I decided to look up the entirety of where this paragraph came after all these years. See http://pinoylit.webmanila.com/filipinowriters/kunawicz.htm

Here's a reading fit for a cold rainy night.

The Sound of One Heart Breaking

I still recall the taste of my tears
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears
I just want something
I just want something I can never have.
--Nine Inch Nails
"Something I Can Never Have"

Habang
Napupunit nang dahan-dahan
Ang iyong papel na puso—
Tahimik na tahimik
Tila walang nangyayari.
--Rayvi Sunico
"Kung Paano Magpaalam"

I'm riding high on a deep depression
I'm only happy when it rains
--Garbage
"I'm Only Happy When It Rains"


EVER COME ACROSS this Zen koan that JD Salinger used in one of his books? You know the one that asks what's the sound of one hand clapping. I don't know the answer to that one. But ask me what’s the sound of one heart breaking and I might provide you with some answers.

This piece started out as a journal entry written early last year, it got reworked into a Times column. I’ve added a few things here and there and now it’s here back to back with another piece by Constantine (which I purposely put after this one so you won’t go away depressed). Welcome to the dark side of love.

[Note: This was published in the April 29, 1996 edition of Mirror Weekly. I won’t show Constantine’s article since I don’t have his permission. --PinoyLit]

* * *

What is the sound of a heart breaking?

It is the sound of someone curled up in a tiny ball crying softly in the night, the sound of the first unwanted teardrop touching your skin, it's the sound of a telephone that doesn't ring, the sound of regret pounding inside your brain with every heartbeat, it's the whispers of the toy animals he gave you.

It's the shuffling of feet walking away from you, the sound of your soul shattering into a million pieces at recognizing the word "goodbye," it’s the soundtrack of memories torturing you, it's the sound of feeble hands trying to push back the obstinate hands of time, it's the sound of a cherub's dying breath, the sound of all those years disappearing in the vortex of Cupid's kitchen sink, it's the unrelenting plaintive baby meows of an abandoned kitten outside an ignoring door.

It's the sound of the rain that doesn't ever stop, the sound of all the doors shutting and closing in your face at the same time, of raging, howling storms in the night when there's no one there to hold you, the sound of your voice as it screams back at you, the echo of "I love yous" burning holes in you, the sound your heart makes as it tells you to lie still because nothing you will ever do will matter without love.

The sound of the waves of the polluted beach you went to as it moves from the shore and crashes inside your mind, of the sniffles that make up your pathetic "SOS-to-the-world," the cracking of the brittle black-red petals from the sidewalk vendor roses he gave, the sound of the music he used to make going to your gut.

The sound of things in your room being thrown around and landing on the floor, the caress of kitchen knives on skin, the sound your throat makes as you swallow your saltiest tear.

It's the sound of your own voice calling out to someone who isn't there, of dying birds getting splattered on a city pavement, of terms of endearment used a hundred times a day struggling to crawl into a vacuum of forgetfulness, it's the sound of your own sobs keeping you company, it's the cold, uncaring stillness of the air you share your space with.

Destruction isn't always as noisy as bombs exploding. Sometimes the ultimate catastrophes are as quiet as a feather falling on the floor of a Zen monastery. No one else can really hear your heart breaking except you.

yellow.

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you

she.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters?

She’s not perfect, you aren’t either, the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, admit to being human & making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can.

She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break; her heart.

So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze, and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.


-Robert Nesta Marley

LSS.

If there's a tear on my face
It makes me shiver to the bone
It shakes me, Babe
It's just a heartache that got caught in my eye
And you know I never cry, I never cry
Sometimes I drink more than I need
Until the TV's dead and gone
I may be lonely
But I'm never alone
And the night may pass me by
But I never cry
Take away, take away my eyes
Sometimes I'd rather be blind
Break a heart, break a heart of stone
Open it up but don't you leave it alone
'Cuz that's all I got to give you
Believe me Babe, it ain't been used
My heart's a virgin, it ain't never been tried
and you know I never cry
and you know I never cry
and you know you know you know you know
I never cry, I never cry
Break a heart, break a heart of stone
Open it up, but don't you leave it alone
'Cuz that's all I got to give you
Believe me Babe, it ain't been used
My heart's a virgin it ain't never been tried
And you know I never cry
I never cry

lethargic stupor

i hope i snap out of this.

6th day

not smoking kills me.
but if it makes you happy, why not?

crying like a church on monday

...

sir ralph cecilio's must-read 100

1. ULYSSES by James Joyce
2. THE GREAT GATSBY by F. Scott Fitzgerald
3. A PORTRAIT OF THE ARTIST AS A YOUNG MAN by James Joyce
4. LOLITA by Vladimir Nabokov
5. BRAVE NEW WORLD by Aldous Huxley
6. THE SOUND AND THE FURY by William Faulkner
7. CATCH-22
8. DARKNESS AT NOON by Arthur Koestler
9. SONS AND LOVERS by D.H. Lawrence
10. THE GRAPES OF WRATH by John Steinbeck
11. UNDER THE VOLCANO by Malcolm Lowry
12. THE WAY OF ALL FLESH by Samuel Butler
13. 1984 by George Orwell
14. I, CLAUDIUS by Robert Graves
15. TO THE LIGHTHOUSE by Virginia Woolf
16. AN AMERICAN TRAGEDY by Theodore Dreiser
17. THE HEART IS A LONELY HUNTER by Carson McCullers
18. SLAUGHTERHOUSE-FIVE by Kurt Vonnegut
19. INVISIBLE MAN by Ralph Ellison
20. NATIVE SON by Richard Wright
21. HENDERSON THE RAIN KING by Saul Bellow
22. APPOINTMENT IN SAMARRA by John O'Hara
23. U.S.A. (trilogy) by John Dos Passos
24. WINESBURG, OHIO by Sherwood Anderson
25. A PASSAGE TO INDIA by E.M. Forster
26. THE WINGS OF THE DOVE by Henry James
27. THE AMBASSADORS by Henry James
28. TENDER IS THE NIGHT by F. Scott Fitzgerald
29. THE STUDS LONIGAN TRILOGY by James T. Farrell
30. THE GOOD SOLDIER by Ford Madox Ford
31. ANIMAL FARM by George Orwell
32. THE GOLDEN BOWL by Henry James
33. SISTER CARRIE by Theodore Dreiser
34. A HANDFUL OF DUST by Evelyn Waugh
35. AS I LAY DYING by William Faulkner
36. ALL THE KING'S MEN by Robert Penn Warren
37. THE BRIDGE OF SAN LUIS REY by Thornton Wilder
38. HOWARDS END by E.M. Forster
39. GO TELL IT ON THE MOUNTAIN by James Baldwin
40. THE HEART OF THE MATTER by Graham Greene
41. LORD OF THE FLIES by William Golding
42. DELIVERANCE by James Dickey
43. A DANCE TO THE MUSIC OF TIME (series) by Anthony Powell
44. POINT COUNTER POINT by Aldous Huxley
45. THE SUN ALSO RISES by Ernest Hemingway
46. THE SECRET AGENT by Joseph Conrad
47. NOSTROMO by Joseph Conrad
48. THE RAINBOW by D.H. Lawrence
49. WOMEN IN LOVE by D.H. Lawrence
50. TROPIC OF CANCER by Henry Miller
51. THE NAKED AND THE DEAD by Norman Mailer
52. PORTNOY'S COMPLAINT by Philip Roth
53. PALE FIRE by Vladimir Nabokov
54. LIGHT IN AUGUST by William Faulkner
55. ON THE ROAD by Jack Kerouac
56. THE MALTESE FALCON by Dashiell Hammett
57. PARADE'S END by Ford Madox Ford
58. THE AGE OF INNOCENCE by Edith Wharton
59. ZULEIKA DOBSON by Max Beerbohm
60. THE MOVIEGOER by Walker Percy
61. DEATH COMES FOR THE ARCHBISHOP by Willa Cather
62. FROM HERE TO ETERNITY by James Jones
63. THE WAPSHOT CHRONICLES by John Cheever
64. THE CATCHER IN THE RYE by J.D. Salinger
65. A CLOCKWORK ORANGE by Anthony Burgess
66. OF HUMAN BONDAGE by W. Somerset Maugham
67. HEART OF DARKNESS by Joseph Conrad
68. MAIN STREET by Sinclair Lewis
69. THE HOUSE OF MIRTH by Edith Wharton
70. THE ALEXANDRIA QUARTET by Lawrence Durell
71. A HIGH WIND IN JAMAICA by Richard Hughes
72. A HOUSE FOR MR BISWAS by V.S. Naipaul
73. THE DAY OF THE LOCUST by Nathanael West
74. A FAREWELL TO ARMS by Ernest Hemingway
75. SCOOP by Evelyn Waugh
76. THE PRIME OF MISS JEAN BRODIE by Muriel Spark
77. FINNEGANS WAKE by James Joyce
78. KIM by Rudyard Kipling
79. A ROOM WITH A VIEW by E.M. Forster
80. BRIDESHEAD REVISITED by Evelyn Waugh
81. THE ADVENTURES OF AUGIE MARCH by Saul Bellow
82. ANGLE OF REPOSE by Wallace Stegner
83. A BEND IN THE RIVER by V.S. Naipaul
84. THE DEATH OF THE HEART by Elizabeth Bowen
85. LORD JIM by Joseph Conrad
86. RAGTIME by E.L. Doctorow
87. THE OLD WIVES' TALE by Arnold Bennett
88. THE CALL OF THE WILD by Jack London
89. LOVING by Henry Green
90. MIDNIGHT'S CHILDREN by Salman Rushdie
91. TOBACCO ROAD by Erskine Caldwell
92. IRONWEED by William Kennedy
93. THE MAGUS by John Fowles
94. WIDE SARGASSO SEA by Jean Rhys
95. UNDER THE NET by Iris Murdoch
96. SOPHIE'S CHOICE by William Styron
97. THE SHELTERING SKY by Paul Bowles
98. THE POSTMAN ALWAYS RINGS TWICE by James M. Cain
99. THE GINGER MAN by J.P. Donleavy
100. THE MAGNIFICENT AMBERSONS by Booth Tarkington


sir ralph is just the best english lit teacher i ever had.
i miss highschool. i miss reading.

27.

whoopeedoo! happy birthday to me!
(ignore the sarcasm)

i have got a lot to be thankful for, but yet...

maynard james keenan.

Something has to change. Undeniable dilemma. Boredom's not a burden anyone should bear. Constant over stimulation numbs me and I wouldn't have it any other way. It's not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I don't want it. I just need it. To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive. Finger deep within the borderline. Show me that you love me and that we belong together. Relax, turn around and take my hand. I can help you change tired moments into pleasure. Say the word and we'll be well upon our way. Blend and balance pain and comfort deep within youtill you will not have me any other way. It's not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I don't want it. I just need it. To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive. Knuckle deep inside the borderline. This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to. Relax. Slip away. Something kinda sad about the way that things have come to be. Desensitized to everything. What became of subtlety? How can it mean anything to me if I really don't feel anything at all? I'll keep digging till I feel something. Elbow deep inside the borderline. Show me that you love me and that we belong together. Shoulder deep within the borderline. Relax, turn around and take my hand.

razorblade suitcase.

straight no chaser

bush

always be there face i live with
always be there face i live with
abscess memory with broken fingers
all the fallen down angels raw pain distress
it's all
in the way we know that we could have it all
some
satellites of pain can't always be ignored
war on all sides
war on all sides

drink life as it comes straight no chaser
life as it comes straight no chaser
climb inside you away from strangers
building a system of alleys and motorways
it's all
in the way we know
we could have it all
some
satellites of pain can't always be ignored
it's all in the face of what we thought we knew before
war on all sides
war on all sides
war on all sides

keep on driving hair left morning wet
there's nothing like losing you
there's nothing like losing you
there's nothing like losing you
there's nothing like losing you

straight no chaser

I can tell by your eyes that you've prob'bly been cryin' forever,
and the stars in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart.
but if I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, my heart?

If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the colors of my heart;
blue for the tears, black for the night's fears.
The star in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart.
but if I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, my heart?
my heart, whoa my heart, this ol' heart.

I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart,
but if I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, my heart?
My heart, whoa, my heart.

i don't wanna talk about it

-rod stewart

SSDD*

i'm tired of the same old crap.
people giving me shit! heck, i've been here for so long!
you dare question my judgement?
why ask a question or ask for help in the first place if you are not going to take my word for it?
i say, wtf - go to hell.
so much for helping.

*same shit, different day.

God is good.

hindi ito kung anuanong shit na basta basta lang para may ilagay dito.

nagdiriwang ang aking puso dahil alam ko na may Diyos at alam kong mahal Nya ako.
naghihirap ako at wala na talaga akong pera, peksman.
naglalakad ako sa ayala avenue kasama mga tropa ko sa opisina, bigla lang akong napatingin sa aking niyayapakan at biglang may kulay ube na nakakulubot!
ito ay aking pinulot at aba, akalain mo -- isang daang piso!!!

dahil dito ay may pambili na ako ng paborito kong pan de coco.
hindi pa ako kumakain simula kagabi. lunch ko sa opis yung pang binigay lang sa akin na blue seal na marlboro menthol lights (langya, menthol pa! onga pala, beggars can't be choosers).

MAY DIYOS AT MAHAL NYA AKO.

Amen.

kaeklavuhan ni Bob Ong na sobrang true naman.

Eto ay mga words of wisdom galing kay Bob Ong. Nakuha ko lamang ito sa isang email na pinadala sa akin ng aking kaibigan. Basahin nyo at kayo ay matutuwa. Mukha syang kalokohan, pero meron talagang katotohanan sa mga sinasabi nya...

Go! go! basahin mo :)


1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo… Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totoong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. "Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala"

17. "Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan"

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo."

20. "Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang mga taong malalapit sa iyo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo."

21. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."

22. Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pagtinamaan ng pagmamahal,
Yun nga lang hindi lahat matibay sa temtasyon.
Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa
kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo,
wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka."

23. "Mangarap ka at abutin mo.
Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya,
palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis.
Kung may pagkukulang sa'yo mga magulang mo,
pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde.
Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka,
magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa bandang huli, ikaw din ang biktima.
Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili."

24. nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay.
hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false,
enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan
kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw.
Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot,
kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala.
Allowed ang erasures."
Ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko.
hinahanap mo nga ba ako o ang kawalan ko?

25. Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad ksa bubog na nakayapak,
pero wag kang sumubok magdrugs.
Kung hindi mo kayang umiwas,
humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo
dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier
at siguradong hindi ka nila iisahan

26. mag-aral maigi, kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral,
manghihinayang ka sa pagtanda mo
dahil ni hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok
o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher.

27. “Sabi nila, sa kahit ano raw problema,
isang tao lang ang makakatulong sa’yo - ang sarili mo.
Tama sila. Isinuplong ako ng sarili ko.
Kaya siguro namigay ng konsyensya ang Diyos,
alam niyang hindi sa lahat ng oras e gumagana ang utak ng tao.”
Iba ang tinititigan sa tinitingnan, ang tinititigan, sa isang bahagi lang nakatingin,
ang tinitingnan, buong bahagi ang sinusuri. Iba rin ang iniintindi sa inuunawa.
Ang iniintindi, pinipilit sa isipan.
Ang inuunawa, alam kung bakit dapat ipilit sa isipan.
Kaya dapat tinitingna ang mga bagay para maunawaan.
At hindi tititigan lang at intindihin.
Kung tutuusin, hindi naman masarap ang alak,
yung mga kainuman lang ang nagpapasarap.

28. Mas madaling ngumiti kahit di ka masaya kaysa ipaliwanag kung bakit malungkot ka.

29. Pag binisita ka ng idea, gana,
o inspirasyon, kailangan mong itigil LAHAT ng ginagawa mo
para lang di masayang ang pagkakataon.
walang taong manhid, hindi nya lang talaga maintindihan kung ano ang gusto mong iparating
dahil ayaw mo syang diretsuhain

30. Ang babae, nirerespeto, inaalagaan!
Hindi 'yan PSP na bubunutin mo lang sa bulsa 'pag gusto mo ng paglaruan.
Hindi 'yan iPod na papakinggan mo lang kapag wala kang libangan.
At hindi 'yan Red Horse na p'wede mong laklakin hanggang madaling-araw.
Ang babae, marami mang arte sa katawan, hindi 'yan gadget para kolektahin at paglaruan.


31. Bakit ka magpaparamdam sa taong hindi marunong makaramdam?
'Wag kang magpakatanga, sa taong hindi marunong magpahalaga.
Matuto kang sumuko at mang-iwan, kung lagi ka namang sinasaktan.


32. Imbis na magtanong ka ng 'Hindi pa ba sapat?',
bakit hindi mo na lang kalimutan ang lahat?
Kung alam mong binabalewala ka na, tanggapin mong nagsasawa na s'ya.


33. Wag kang magpadala sa salitang 'sorry' at 'ayokong mawala ka.'
Kung totoo 'yun, patunayan n'ya.


34. Paano mo masasabing special ka sa isang tao
kung ang bawat ginagawa niya sa'yo ay ginagawa din n'ya sa iba?


35. Minsan pala kailangan rin ang lakas para sabihing mahina ka,
ang karapatan kong madapa at bumangon sa buhay ng walang tatatawa,
magagalit, magtatanong o magbibilang kung ilang beses na kong nagkamali at ilang ulit ako dapat bumawi.


36. Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali?
Alam ba nilang 'pag natuto silang umibig eh hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?


37. Kahit ikaw ay parang bato na manhid at walang pakiramdam,
mag-ingat-ingat ka naman. Dahil kahit ganyan ka, hindi nasasaktan,
kaya mo namang makasakit.


38. Ganyan talaga ang mga tao,
pipihit-pihitin ang katotohanan hanggang sa sumang-ayon na ito sa kumportableng posisyon ng mga makasarili nilang puso.


39. Hindi naman yung taong mahal mo ang mahirap kalimutan nung nawala sya sa'yo eh,
kundi yung taong naging ikaw dahil sa kanya.

a love song for bobby long

the heart is a lonely hunter.

i don't do movie reviews but i've got to say, i like this movie.

sana.

sana sa bawat "i love you" na natatanggap ko may katumbas o kakambal na 1,000PhP.

mayaman na sana ako ngayon.

dukha.

patung-patong na ang aking dinadala.

sunud-sunod na ang mga dagok sa aking buhay.

wala na bang iba kundi puro problema?

sige, anu-ano pa ba ang mga parating?

naisip ko, dapat sana pumipila ang mga problema...

tipong first come, first serve.

huwag naman sanang sabay-sabay.

nakakahilo.

nakakapagod.

nakakabaliw.

kelan pa makakapahinga?

nakakapagod na mag isip.

pero hayaan mo na, sige pa at kakayanin ko pa rin.

Happiness

Happiness
Originally uploaded by grazzzi11

^_^

74 Tanglaw St.

lumipas na ang delubyo. 

may bago na akong tahanan. 

ngayon, ako ay...

...masaya.

let it be.

Solitude is the profoundest fact of the human condition. Man is the only being who knows he is alone.

- The Labyrinth of Solitude, 1950. Author: Octavio Paz

...

DI KO NA ALAM ANONG GAGAWIN KO SHET!

paalam

nung bata pa kami ng kapatid ko, lagi kaming nagsasoundtrip...
kanikanina lang, nagtext sa akin ang kapatid ko.
tedons, wala na si francism.
nalungkot ako.
wala akong masabi.

Alay
-Imago

Mamaalam Tala kong may ngiti
Saglit lamang May huling habilin
Sa gitna ng 'yong paglalakbay
Sa dako mong ihihimlay
Dalhin ang payapa't Pangakong wagas.
Patawad.

Koro:
May lunas pa raw Nananamlay mong diwa
S'yang may gamay Ng malay mong tilang, Hiram.
Itong minamata Daang tinitimbang,
Dala, tangi kong Alay.

Mamaalam Sa mundong kay lupit
Sadya kayang Nilihis ka sa pait
Sa gitna ng 'yong paghihimlay
Mangako kang maghihintay
Dalhin sa paglitis Taglay na tamis.
Paalam.

halle, hello... ako ang nanay mo. :)

from teej's blog http://gulamak.multiply.com/journal/item/7

Payo ng isang magulang sa kanyang anak

Anak, sa maniwala ka o sa hindi, ikaw ang pinakamagandang nangyari sa buhay ko. Kahit hindi kami naging mag-asawa ng nanay mo, sana huwag kang magtatampo kung ikasal kami sa iba at magkaroon ka ng mga bagong kapatid. Magmahalan kayo bilang magkakapatid, at huwag ninyong gawing telenobela ang buhay ninyo dahil sa walang kakwenta-kwentang bagay.

Mahalin mo ang nanay mo. Wala siyang ibang inisip kundi kapakanan mo. Kung paluin ka man niya o sigawan, ito ay dahil may nagawa kang hindi sang-ayon sa mga prinsipyo niya. Itanong mo kung bakit ka niya pinapagalitan. Kung mali naman talaga, huwag mo nang ulitin.

Piliin mong mabuti ang mga kaibigan mo. Huwag sumali sa barkada na may iisang stereotype. Huwag sumali sa barkada na puro jologs, puro conio, puro bakla, puro nerd, puro manginginom, o puro manyak. Siguraduhin mong nakikita mo ang lahat ng klase ng tao sa barkada mo. Mas marami kang matututunan sa kanila kesa sa TV o sa bahay mo. Marami silang maituturo sa yo na hindi namin kaya, o hindi appropriate na kami ang magturo.

Maging fluent ka sa written and spoken English. Pag-aralan mong mabuti ang subject-verb agreement. Huwag kang matakot mag-consult sa dictionary o thesaurus kapag may hindi ka naiintindihan. Kasi anak, darating ang araw, makakaapak ka sa ibang bansa, at sigurado akong marami kang makakausap na hindi makakaintindi ng Tagalog. Kahit saang sulok sa mundo, makakahanap ka ng magsasalita ng English.

Gawin mo ang lahat para matuto kang mag-gitara. Pag-aralan mo ding kumanta ng nasa tono. Kahit saan mo kasi dalhin ang gitara, maaaliw ka e. Isipin mo yung mga bulag. Hindi sila nakakapag-Playstation. Hindi sila nakakapag-Internet. Hindi sila nanonood ng TV, at hindi sila nakakapag-enjoy sa mall. Pero bigyan mo sila ng gitara at pakantahin mo, matutuwa sila. May kuryente man o wala, mapapasaya ka ng gitara. Makinig ka sa mga kanta ng Beatles. Kapag naging aware ka na sa pag-develop ng musical style ng Beatles, kahit anong genre kaya mong i-appreciate. Sa kanila ka matututong magsulat ng poetry, at sa kanila mo rin matututunan kung paano lagyan ng music ang poetry na ito. Saan ka nakakita ng banda na lampas 30 years nang naghiwalay, patay na ang ilan sa mga miyembro, pero sikat at ginagaya pa rin? Beatles lang ang makakagawa nun, anak.

Pagdating mo ng college, huwag mong kakalimutang subukan lahat ng kalokohan sa mundo. Bakit college? Kasi kung high school ka magiging sira ulo, mawawalan ka ng options sa college. Baka sa walang kwentang money-centric computer institute ka bumagsak. Mag-aral ka ng mabuti sa elementary at high school. Dapat makapasok ka sa UP, Ateneo, La Salle, o UST. Dapat maganda yung course mo. Sa college, balansehin mo yung academics mo tsaka kalokohan. Gumimik ka pero pasukan mo lahat ng klase mo kinbukasan. Huwag magpakalasing kung wala kang siguradong uuwian at kung walang aalalay sa yo pag sumusuka ka na. Wag maadik sa droga. Sumubok kang mag-marijuana pero subok lang. Kung dadating yung panahong hindi mo na mapigilang makipag-sex, siguraduhin mo lang na gaganda ang lahi natin kung sakaling mabuntis mo yung makaka-sex mo.

Practice safe sex. Wag mong kakalimutang mag-survey ng lugar kung may camera o wala. Kawawa naman ang nanay mo kung malalaman niyang may scandal ka.

Huwag mong gawing trial and error ang pagkakaroon ng girlfriend. Alamin mo muna kung ano ang kaya mong ibigay sa isang relationship, at kapag nalaman mo na, doon ka maghanap ng isang babaeng magiging masaya sa mga maibibigay mo. Pakinggan mong mabuti ang mga kuwento ng girlfriend mo. Alamin mo kung ano ang mga gusto niya at mga ayaw niya.Huwag mong sisigawan. Dahil ang babae, kapag pinakinggan mo siya at alam niyang nirerespeto mo siya, mamahalin ka nun habambuhay.

Pagka-graduate mo, iwanan mo na ang mga araw na umaasa ka pa sa ibang tao para mabuhay. Matuto kang mag-ipon. Alamin mo kung tama yung kinakaltas sa sweldo mo. Pinaghirapan mo yang pera na yan. Huwag mong hayaang kunin na lang ng kung sinu-sino. Bago ka gumastos, lagi mong itanong sa sarili mo kung ang bibilhin mo ay isang NEED o isa lamang WANT. Sana maging accountable sa lahat ng ginagawa mo. Oo, hindi maganda ang sitwasyon nung dumating ka sa mundo. Pero sana sa paglaki mo, huwag mong sisisihin ang mga pangyayaring ito kaya ka nagrerebelde o nalulugar sa masamang landas. Ang buhay mo ngayon ay dahil sa desisyon namin na mabuhay ka. Pero tandaan mo to: lahat ng mangyayari sa buhay mo e dahil sa mga desisyon mo.

Anak, marami pa akong gustong sabihin sa iyo. Buti na lang naitanong ko sa isang kaibigan ko kung ano ang kaisa-isang advice na maibibigay niya sa anak nya, at eto yung nasabi niya sa kin.

Sa lahat ng maibibigay kong advice, eto ang pinakamahalaga: LEARN.

Huwag kang matakot matuto. Matuto ka sa Discovery at National Geographic channels. Matuto ka sa library. Matuto ka sa Internet.
Matuto ka sa news. Matuto ka sa Bible, Koran, at teachings ni Buddha. Matuto ka sa mga pagkakamali namin ng nanay mo. Matuto ka sa mga kaibigan mo. Matuto ka sa mga pagkakamali mo...

ayan. halleigh... 

mahal na mahal kita, anak. 

oi

may sasabihin ako sayo...
pero sikret.
nyahahha. :p

love is suicide.

another googlie thingamajig

Go to Google and do the following:

1. Follow the directions for each question.
2. Answer with the first thing that makes sense.


Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search.
Donna needs two hands to keep things steady.
-pasmado? yes i am. lol!

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search.
Donna looks like... a disaster waiting to happen. 
- now this is soooo true. hahahha!

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
Donna says hey. I’m back, more later.
- okay. sounds like something i would normally say. yeah, hey.

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search.
Donna wants to be healthier. 
- live a healthy lifestyle, my mom texted me last night. so yea, i wanna be healthier. in the truest sense of the word: h-e-a-l-t-h-y. 

Q:Type in "[your name] does" in Google search.
Donna Does A Dildo! 
- OH SO KINKY! HAHAHAHAH! 

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search.
Donna Hates Flowery Sheets.
- hmmm. depends, i guess. flowery sheets, sounds girlygirl but heh if it looks nice, fine by me!

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search.
Donna asks: What did the ghost say to the bees!?
- like hell i care? but this kinda got me curious... WHAT did the ghost say to the bees? hahaha!

Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search.
Donna likes to think about whether we have a soul and the meaning of life, and I like to go make lists about what we have to do tomorrow," he said.
- i keep thinking about that -- whether we have a soul and the meaning of life. this shit makes up my thoughts during many sleepless nights.

Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search.
Donna eats when she's stressed.
- true that!

Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search.
Donna got arrested for marijuana possession.
- hmm. this can happen, but i wont let it. haha :p

Q: Type in "[your name] loves" in Google Search.
Donna loves TAHO.
- i HATE taho! as in. yak. i only eat taho when i have no choice. :p

Q: Type in "[your name] was killed by" in Google Search.
Donna was killed by a malfuctioning Superman robot. 

- funny. who knows, it can happen :p looking forward to this! lol!

walang nag bago part 2

rommel

minsan lang me pansinin ni kaye sa ym

9:49pmDonnadelle

ano ba sinasabi mo

9:49pmrommel

sobra busy

9:49pmDonnadelle

baka palpak naman pinagsasabi mo

lol

9:49pmrommel

hi kaye;gud pm kaye;gud am kay;

9:49pmDonnadelle

wag tayo dito mag usap

sa ym

[21:50] rommeling_10: may isang phrase sure papansinin ako

[21:50] dawnuhdehl: ano

[21:50] rommeling_10: "pa load kaye"  kaye: oks

[21:50] dawnuhdehl: haha

[21:50] rommeling_10: pero pinapansin naman nya me minsan

[21:50] rommeling_10: kaya ko nga nakuha yung blog address nya

[21:50] dawnuhdehl: ok

ewan ko ba rommel. bagong taon na. mag bago ka na. hahah :)

nakakatawa ka talaga. salamat :p

walang nag bago

[21:02] dawnuhdehl: http://www.philstar.com/Article.aspx?articleId=437000&publicationSubCategoryId=63

[21:02] rommeling_10: tapos na ata

[21:03] rommeling_10: full moon na lang nakikita ko

[21:03] dawnuhdehl: BASAHIN MO KASI

[21:03] dawnuhdehl: SABI HANGGANG 12 :p

[21:04] rommeling_10: kapag may ganyan ba pwede mag wish tapos magkakatotoo??

[21:04] rommeling_10: :))

[21:04] dawnuhdehl: hindi

[21:04] dawnuhdehl: kc ayaw ni kae ng bf

[21:04] dawnuhdehl: :)

[21:04] rommeling_10: hmmm

[21:04] rommeling_10: di naman yung i wiwish ko eh

[21:04] dawnuhdehl: ano

[21:04] rommeling_10: rank 1 sa magic

[21:04] rommeling_10: :)

[21:05] dawnuhdehl: YAK

[21:05] rommeling_10: joke lang

[21:05] rommeling_10: basta

[21:05] dawnuhdehl: ok sige

[21:05] dawnuhdehl: pagbigyan

[21:05] dawnuhdehl: haha

[21:05] rommeling_10: nabanggit mo na din si kaye

[21:06] rommeling_10: bakit ayaw nya ng bf??

[21:06] dawnuhdehl: ewan ko dun

[21:06] dawnuhdehl: gusto nya babae

[21:06] dawnuhdehl: kaya kme close

[21:06] rommeling_10: ahh

[21:06] dawnuhdehl: pero wag ka maingay

[21:06] rommeling_10: so tinging nya kay haj bading

[21:06] rommeling_10: hehehe joke

[21:06] dawnuhdehl: sikretong malupit talaga

[21:06] dawnuhdehl: duh

[21:06] dawnuhdehl: sumbong kita

[21:06] dawnuhdehl: gagu

[21:06] rommeling_10: sorry joke lang yun

[21:07] rommeling_10: malupit ako magtago ng secret

[21:07] dawnuhdehl: o

[21:07] dawnuhdehl: kunwari

[21:07] rommeling_10: yung mga secreto ng mga kaibigan ko nung kinder di ko padin pinagsasabi

[21:07] dawnuhdehl: wag mo pagkalat na meron kme something ni kae

[21:08] dawnuhdehl: tarantado ka pag nalaman ni haj yan patay

[21:08] rommeling_10: so kayo ni kaye

[21:08] dawnuhdehl: di naman exclusive

[21:08] dawnuhdehl: kasi alam naman namen di to conventional

[21:09] rommeling_10: your secret is safe with me

[21:09] dawnuhdehl: ok

[21:09] dawnuhdehl: salamat

[21:09] rommeling_10: YW

[21:09] rommeling_10: stfu me

[21:10] dawnuhdehl: waw may ganun ka na ha

[21:10] dawnuhdehl: parang kung sa pinoy comedy, binatukan mo na sarili mo

[21:10] dawnuhdehl: bago pa kita babatukan

[21:10] rommeling_10: aw hehehe

[21:10] rommeling_10: galing ng boyce avenue pag dating sa acoustic music

[21:11] dawnuhdehl: sino yan

[21:11] dawnuhdehl: baka jologs

[21:11] dawnuhdehl: kasi ikaw nag recommend

[21:11] dawnuhdehl: ahahhaha

[21:11] rommeling_10: jologs is on the eyes of the beholder :))

[21:12] rommeling_10: magaganda yung mga versions nila ng mga sikat na kanta like disturbia,leona lewis,oasis etc

[21:13] dawnuhdehl: ah

[21:13] dawnuhdehl: ayoko ng ganyan

[21:13] dawnuhdehl: di mkagawa ng sariling kanta

[21:13] dawnuhdehl: renditions nalang

[21:13] rommeling_10: yun nga lang yung malungkot dun

[21:13] dawnuhdehl: ok so wag na naten pagdiinan pa

[21:14] dawnuhdehl: di ko sila pakikinggan

[21:14] dawnuhdehl: haha

ramon bautista

i am trying to find something to distract me (i'm hungry, and there's no food!)

so i surfed... and surfed the internet.

alas, i came upon ramon bautista.

i fell in love <3

salamat uli

bert salamat uli.
di naman kasi tayo tipong mushy na tropa so dito nalang ako magpapasalamat.
you really made it your mission to take care of us.
salamat.

bert: boi, kumain ka na?
donna: ayos lang may biskwit ako.
bert: senxa na kasi wala na rin akong pera.

it's the thought that counts. hehe.
salamat bro, mag yosi nalang tayo!

donna likes to...

INSTRUCTIONS: Go to Google and type in quotation marks, your name, and then "likes to" (ex. "Michelle likes to"). Type in the first ten things that come up and re-post in your own blog.

Results 1 - 10 of about 2,230 for "donna likes to". (0.20 seconds)

"Donna likes to think about whether we have a soul and the meaning of life, and I like to go make lists about what we have to do tomorrow," he said. ...

-true this, hehe. i want to think about whether we have a soul and the meaning of life. and lists? true that too! (but yet, i am still unorganized)

Donna likes to shop – for anything and everybody. She likes to walk and enjoy the sites. She likes to travel and appreciate the new experiences travel ...

-oh i love to shop. i always just don't have enough dough everytime i go shopping. hmm. window shopping, pwede! dunno about walking, i only like walking when i'm with somoeone who can strike up a good conversation. travelling... ahh yes. i want to travel, i mean, who doesn't?

Donna likes to read books about the outdoors and the west. She especially loves Colorado where the family vacations yearly. Ms. McCollum lives just outside ...

-i love books and the outdoors. colorado? i haven't been there ;p

"Working together, we will all make a difference, as Donna likes to say, "One Child, One Family at a Time." View Online Source ...

-ah so cliche the we will all make a difference part.

Donna likes to use the library for research and relaxation, and credits the computer area with teaching her how to use the internet. ...

-i don't get to be in a library anymore but i used to love spending spare time there in college. and i taught myself how to use the internet, no credits to the computer area, wherever that is.

Jul 18, 2008 ... her free-time, Donna likes to spend time with her family, connect with the youth in her church. community, read, walk, and garden. ...

-i like to spend time with my family, period.

Professionally, Donna likes to participate in manuscript preparation and submissions, and has enjoyed learning how to use. Endnotes. ...

-manuwhat?

Donna likes to begin by studying the unique blend of culture, people, location and theme of a project and then assembling a strong team of professionals to ...

-ahm. it will be too much for my brain to handle.

Jan 29, 2002 ... Donna likes to play in the sandbox with her G.I. Joe's. Marcie likes to play with Donna. If they don't scare you then you must already be ...

-sandbox. me? yea right.

... Rhode Island, was so popular that she bowed to her customers' demands and began designing interiors Donna likes to mix and match styles and patterns to ...

-i like to mix and match styles and patterns... but not with my wardrobe. hehe

i got curious so i checked the other results:

Results 11 - 20 of about 2,210 for "donna likes to". (0.34 seconds)

Apart from scaring unprepared opponents * and gardening, Donna likes to read and cook. Especially cook. She loves to cook for people who love to eat! ...

-I LOVE TO READ AND COOK. ESPECIALLY COOK. HEHEHE :)

Donna likes to keep her artworks as original and unique as she can, and finds the best way to do this is to keep each artwork different and not to recreate ...

-artworks? what artworks? hehe. TBH, i'm a frustrated artist :$

Donna likes to dress funny - a set on Flickr

-i dunno about this one.

When The scripts we use to Donna likes to spend all her time at home, navigate intimacy arc JaV feels that she lacks vitality and is not informed by our o ...

-what?

Dec 2, 2006 ... Donna likes to tell the story of a couple from Brisbane, Australia, part of a group of 11 skiers she and Wayne first introduced to Big White ...

-oooohkay...

Donna lives in the Ventura hillsides. She has two children and two grandchildren . Donna likes to travel, hike, read, ski and work out at the gym. ...

-where is ventura hillsides? this donna (me) only has 1 child (halleigh) and this donna hates working out. hehe.

Besides traveling and writing, Donna likes to read classic fiction and sci-fi. Her favorite authors are James Baldwin, Toni Morrison, and Ray Bradbury. ...

-again, i LOVE to read.

(edit); Donna likes to paint China dishes.(edit); Donna is a member of the Distinguished Women Of Louisiana, and was honored in 2000 in the State Archives ...

-i like to paint (read: frustrated artist)

I said that I hated to go, but, — and here, Plagiarism, gentle presence! lit on my brow, — "This Donna likes to be en automobile. ...

-ano daw?

Donna likes to combine Garden and Show dahlias in her arrangements. Zingaro, Jean Marie, Berliner Kleene, Hamilton Lillian and Stanza were used in this one. ...

-i tried gardening. i just don't think i have a green thumb. the only gardening i'm doing around here is on facebook. haha lil green patches! :p

thank you

i have made a game plan

try to make it like peter pan

alas, i am not starving!

oh yeah, i'm surviving

will i make it through lunch time

or will i mess up this rhyme?

you made it a mission to feed me

my lunches are paid for free

i've been broke since payday

but did not call for mayday

i tried to get it through

couldn't have done it without you

hahaha :) i know it sucks. it's not even well thought-of. impromtu. i'm not much of a poet, i just want to say thank you to my friend gilbert quinan. i know he will not be able to read this but bert, i wanna tell you i appreciate the little things you do. you've been our resident big brother for quite a while now and i just really want to thank you for always looking after us.

i won't forget what you did for me today. you've been sponsoring my lunches for a couple of days now, nahihiya na ako sayo. 

(kasi di kami sabay mag lunch kanina...)

bert: o bro, kumain ka na (sabay abot ng 50php)

donna: (tulala)

you know you can count on your friends. you don't have to ask, they just know.