birthday na ni daddy bukas...

Missing You

No words I write can ever say
How much I miss you every day.
As time goes by, the loneliness grows;
How I miss you, nobody knows!
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name,
But all I have are memories
And photos in a frame.
No one knows my sorrow,
No one sees me weep,
But the love I have for you
Is in my heart to keep.
I've never stopped loving you
I'm sure I never will;
Deep inside my heart,
You are with me still.
Heartaches in this world are many
But mine is worse than any.
My heart still aches as I whisper low,
"I need you and I miss you so."
The things we feel so deeply
Are often the hardest to say,
But I just can't keep quiet any more,
So I'll tell you anyway.
There is a place in my heart
That no one else can fill;
I love you so, Dad,
And I always will.

Author Unknown

Cancer.

Kapalaran Mo Ngayong Araw Na Ito

look at my kapalaran for today, 24june2011

grabe, andami kong tawa! :D

Love: Pag-aawayan ninyo theme song ninyo

Money: Kapag nabasag itlog, magluto ng omelette

Career: Huwaw! Ikaw ang lalapitan ng trabaho

ooooooooookay, so pag aawayan namin theme song namin? nyeh. bakit naman? i don't think that'll ever happen, diba bee? :P

tama nga naman, pag nabasag itlog, magluto ng omelette... pero mas gusto ko ihalo sa noodles. perfect for the weather! haha :)

itong kapalaran ko sa career pinakagusto ko. i'm leaving for cebu tomorrow at sana totoong ako ang lalapitan ng trabaho. "huwaw!" daw o! nyaaahhahaha :D

what's my favorite color?

ipod case, dangling earrings, nails, bag, flipflops = green!

raided my closet and i only found 4 green-colored ones. my favorite's the old navy tee:

a present from karen's boyfie jedi:

the green thingies:

from veekeeroo:

also from veekee:

haha, and this too:

go green! :D

Show and Tell Thursdays!

lemme show/tell you what i've been up to this summer... this is a super late post, i opened my garage sale sometime late april, i've already closed shop. so yeah, this is indeed a late post. who cares, nobody reads my crap anyway. hahaha :P

my little tindera promoting our banana turon:

so there you have it, my garage sale and its different configurations. hehe :)

want

super dooper want this for my ipod. in hot pink. yeah!

Let's run, Cebu!

i'm gonna be leaving for Cebu in a couple of days.

gameplan:

1. get a job.

2. move in to a new apartment.

3. relocate H and mum.

of course, in between this, i'll be working on being fit.

i'm thinking of getting myself a gym membership, i don't know... but more than anything, i want to run. once i get a job, i'm hoping my schedule will allow me to run and not beat me up with mothereffin' stress at the office.

dexter made it a point that i get good running shoes but i have zero knowledge on what to get. i told him i want green running shoes. appearance over comfort. hahaha! i found this pair of nike free shoes that i like. my plan was to get my long lost ninang to buy me shoes, since she kept on asking what i wanted for pasalubong but oooooh no that cannot be, carry one! haha! dexter says i should really try the shoes on before buying it. he says the size of the shoe may be the same but the insole fit may not be right and i have to check the arc of my foot and my pronation, that's why the shoes must be tried on -- they must fit perfectly on my friggin' feet before i buy them.

like not knowing which shoe to get, i also have zero knowledge on running in general. the dextromethorphan suggests i do research because he thinks i think running is a piece of cake. he says it would be nice if i'd get the perfect shoes so running would be a great experience, otherwise i would be wasting money and risking an injury. so he recommends checking out nike shoes with dynamic support.

oh well, anyway, since i will be buying my own shoes... what do you think should i ask for pasalubong?

look at us

if dad was here, he'd shake his head in disappointment.

i'm sorry, dad. all i ever want was for all of us to be together, but since you've been gone it seems that things took a turn at the wrong alley. i don't know what to do anymore. i wish you were here to tell me which direction to tread.

fuck this shit.

I CANNOT WAIT TO GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE.

Echo (Trapt)

Close my eyes

Let the whole thing pass me by

There is no time to waste

Asking why?

I'll run away with you, by my side

I'll run away with you, by my side

I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride

(Asking why?)

I think about your face

And how I fall into your eyes

The out moment I trace around the one that I call mine

Time to count more space

And beware that your drew the line

I don't need you solve this case

And I don't need to look behind

Close my eyes

Let the whole thing pass me by

There is no time to waste

Asking why?

I'll run away with you, By my side

I'll run away with you, By my side

I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride

(Asking why?)

Do I except you change, the past I hold inside?

With all the words I say

Repeating over in my mind

Some things you cant erase

No matter how hard you try

An exit to escape

Is all there is left to find

Close my eyes

Let the whole thing pass me by

There is no time to waste

Asking why?(Asking why)

I'll run away with you, by my side

I'll run away with you, by my side

I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride

Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind

Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

So I,

Close my eyes

Let the whole thing pass me by

There is no time to waste

Asking why?

I'll run away with you, by my side

I'll run away with you, by my side

I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride

Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind

Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

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LSS

my head's been playing two songs over and over for the past 2weeks now:

Sextape

Deftones

Floating under

Water ever

Changing

Picture hours out from

Land in tune with all our

Dreams

The ocean takes me

Into the watch you shake it

Watch you wave your powers

Tempt with hours of pleasure

Take me one more time

Take me one more wave

Take me for one last ride

I’m out of my head

Tonight

Tonight

Tonight

Tonight

The sound of the waves collide

The sound of the waves collide

The sound of the waves collide

Tonight

We ride

Cruising through

The city after Hours

With me

Fusing all our

Powers Here’s to all our dreams

Take me one more time

Take me one more wave

Take me for one last ride

I’m out of my head

Tonight

Tonight

Tonight

Tonight

Tonight the sound of the waves collide

Tonight the sound of the waves collide

Tonight the sound of the waves collide

Tonight

We ride

Three Rounds and a Sound

Blind Pilot

They're playing our song

They're playing our song

Can you see the lights?

Can you hear the hum?

Of our song

I hope they get it right

I hope we dance tonight

Before we, get it wrong

And the seasons

Will change us new

Be the best I've known

and you know me

I could not be stuck on you

If it were true

I was sleeping

My eyes were dark

Til you woke me

And told me that opening

is just the start

it was

Now I see you, til kingdom come

You're the one I want

To see me for all the stupid shit I've done

(Chorus)

Soil and six feet under

Killed just like we were

Before you knew you'd know me

And you know me

Blooming up from the ground

3 Rounds and a sound

Like whispering you know me

And you know me

So this was our song

This was our song

I still see the lights

I can see them

And the criss cross

Of what is true, won't get to us

Cause you know me

I could not give up on you

And the fog of what is right

Won't cover us cause you know me

I could not give up a fight

(Chorus Time)

watching the time go by

Charlotte Surf Watch

Aurora Surf Watch

Holly Pu Surf Watch

Candy Silicone Surf Watch

i am not a fan of wrist accessories but i want a watch. i want to wear something on my wrist. it's always a struggle to find the right one. i had this favorite watch when i was 7, wore it for a couple of years. it was a cool shade of green and it had a silicone-ish strap. i've had leather strapped watches before but they always made my wrist itch. figured if i'd get another watch, it must have a donna-friendly strap. haha :) came across these watches from ripcurl. there are candy-colored watches but i don't know... black's always safe. *shrug*

if you ever need to know what time it is, come find me (once i get my hands on one of these!).

hits.

i wonder who wandered and became the 666th hit. haha :D

tanghalian.

ice-cold buko juice

blanched fresh kamote tops

sarap nito! kakapitas lang na kamatis at preskong preskong kamote tops!

okoy, anyone?

impromptu salad

check out my healthy masterpiece. LOL. i improvised because we did not have olive oil and balsamic vinegar in our pantry. anyway, i'm not a fan of those measuring thingamajigs so lemme just tell you what i used to come up with this treat:

my TLC: Tomato, Lettuce, Carrots.

my dressing: rice wine, vinegar, calamansi juice, white sugar, brown sugar, grated ginger, vegetable oil, sesame oil, salt and pepper.

topping: mom's homemade longganisa, shredded to bits.

slacking?

who, me? NOT!

been without internet connection for a while now. i have a lot of shit i want to post here but it's so passé. anyway, i will try to catch up. haha :)

fish fillets!

grabe, ansarap! malasugi fillets in our secret batter. i assure you, it TASTES better than it looks!

sweetie is getting married!

and it's going to be in Mati, with balloons! this is gonna be fun! :D

congrats Cielo and Brad! see you in October!

(photo credit: AP Photo/Ricardo Moraes)

http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2008/12/2008_in_photographs_part_2_of.html#photo32

praning.

nakakapraning ang mga pangyayari sa mundo recently.

makagawa nga ng sariling go bag.

jogging with H.

this would be the second time H went to jog with us. check out the first time here.

view the complete set of today's jog here.

i don't get it.

nobody deserves such a tragedy as the tsunami in Japan. it's not a friggin' joke you guys. karma? what has karma got to do with this shit?

i came across this* on tumblr and i was like, WTF? i can only shake my head.

such hypocrites.

*http://karmajapan.tumblr.com collated tweets from heartless people attributing the tragedy to karma, that Japan had it coming for what happened in the past (remember Pearl Harbor?) and whaling.

P.S. i don't condone whaling or violence of any sort. so heh. just my two cents.

there is order in chaos.

A letter from Sendai

Things here in Sendai have been rather surreal. But I am very blessed to have wonderful friends who are helping me a lot. Since my shack is even more worthy of that name, I am now staying at a friend's home. We share supplies like water, food and a kerosene heater. We sleep lined up in one room, eat by candlelight, share stories. It is warm, friendly, and beautiful.

During the day we help each other clean up the mess in our homes. People sit in their cars, looking at news on their navigation screens, or line up to get drinking water when a source is open. If someone has water running in their home, they put out a sign so people can come to fill up their jugs and buckets.

It's utterly amazingly that where I am there has been no looting, no pushing in lines. People leave their front door open, as it is safer when an earthquake strikes. People keep saying, "Oh, this is how it used to be in the old days when everyone helped one another."

Quakes keep coming. Last night they struck about every 15 minutes. Sirens are constant and helicopters pass overhead often.

We got water for a few hours in our homes last night, and now it is for half a day. Electricity came on this afternoon. Gas has not yet come on. But all of this is by area. Some people have these things, others do not. No one has washed for several days. We feel grubby, but there are so much more important concerns than that for us now. I love this peeling away of non-essentials. Living fully on the level of instinct, of intuition, of caring, of what is needed for survival, not just of me, but of the entire group.

There are strange parallel universes happening. Houses a mess in some places, yet then a house with futons or laundry out drying in the sun. People lining up for water and food, and yet a few people out walking their dogs. All happening at the same time.

Other unexpected touches of beauty are first, the silence at night. No cars. No one out on the streets. And the heavens at night are scattered with stars. I usually can see about two, but now the whole sky is filled. The mountains are Sendai are solid and with the crisp air we can see them silhouetted against the sky magnificently.

And the Japanese themselves are so wonderful. I come back to my shack to check on it each day, now to send this e-mail since the electricity is on, and I find food and water left in my entranceway. I have no idea from whom, but it is there. Old men in green hats go from door to door checking to see if everyone is OK. People talk to complete strangers asking if they need help. I see no signs of fear. Resignation, yes, but fear or panic, no.

They tell us we can expect aftershocks, and even other major quakes, for another month or more. And we are getting constant tremors, rolls, shaking, rumbling. I am blessed in that I live in a part of Sendai that is a bit elevated, a bit more solid than other parts. So, so far this area is better off than others. Last night my friend's husband came in from the country, bringing food and water. Blessed again.

Somehow at this time I realize from direct experience that there is indeed an enormous Cosmic evolutionary step that is occurring all over the world right at this moment. And somehow as I experience the events happening now in Japan, I can feel my heart opening very wide. My brother asked me if I felt so small because of all that is happening. I don't. Rather, I feel as part of something happening that much larger than myself. This wave of birthing (worldwide) is hard, and yet magnificent.

Thank you again for your care and Love of me,

With Love in return, to you all,

Anne

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Juju posted this on facebook. Must read talaga. Nakakainggit ang mga Japanese, grabe ang disiplina nila. Sana ganito din tayo sa 'pinas. Sabi nga ni Toph, maski nung tsunami na mismo yung dumaan dun sa road, isa isa pa rin silang nag u-turn sa tamang u-turn slot. E dito? with or without disaster, basta walang parak -- sige go, u-turn lang. Nakakabilib talaga ang mga Hapon. God bless them.

Also, read this article: Japanese discipline rules despite disaster.

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agutayan reef and marine sanctuary

wow. first time ever that i posted something on facebook and comments and likes kept coming in. as in, non-stop! haha. sobrang ganda ng place, kahit mediocre photographer pwedeng makapagproduce ng magagandang pictures. babalik ako doon. :)

revisiting.

i'm such a big fan of flowerpot, not only because the toph plays the guitar for them *girly giggles* but because they make awesome music.

listen to their mystical sound here.

beach-bound!

outing with my highschool batchmates tomorrow. off to some beach somewhere. i have no idea where but i'm pretty certain it would be grand. :)

H in Lomo