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my family wishes everyone a peaceful and joyous holiday season.
merry, merry Christmas!

Christmas Morning

Wake up little darling
It’s Christmas morning
The sun is up, it’s time to open
All the gifts that you’ve been given

You had been dreaming
Angels are singing
But now they’re gone
And once again it’s time
To go on with our lives

Let’s hope that the next year
Will be better than the last year
And somehow we’d all get by
And maybe the time will come
When we wont need to pretend
To be happy for just a while

World keeps on turning
Fools keep on wishing
And when you wake
You’ll find that everything
Is not what we dreamed them to be

Wake up little darling
It’s Christmas morning
So rise and shine
Let's make the most of Happy Holidays
Or maybe i should just let you dream
For a while longer
Wherever's a better place than here

(i'm in a melancholic trance, not so "christmas-sy". homesick. this eraserheads song's for y'all.)

life sucks.

what's new?

I AM BACK!

THANKS TO TOPERNICUS, MY COMPUTER IS FIXED!

and as a treat for all my lovely viewers, i give you this wonderful piece of literature...

THIS SHIT'S HILARIOUS!!! To all you Twilight fans, PEACE OUT!!:)

(reposted, from toph's friend)

tara tawa tayo. HAHAHA. (TWILIGHT IN TAGALOG) 

kasi pare ganito raw yun. may isa raw babae na hot daw pare. pero maputla siya kasi hindi siya inalagaan ng nanay niya pare. tapos pare emo raw siya kasi nga raw hindi siya mahal ng mundo at para siyang patay na batang galit sa mundo. tapos pare, lumipat daw siya ng tirahan kasi raw masyado siyang emo para sa luma niyang tirahan. sabi niya sa nanay niya "tangina mo nay gusto ko lumipat kay tay". tangina pare hindi nagalit nanay niya. sabi lang ng nanay niya "tangina mo pare wag ka magmura".

so lumipat siya sa tatay niya di ba? pagkarating niya run sabi niya, "tangina erpat bakit maulan dito?" sabi ng erpat niya "gago ber months na! malamig na tangena". so nagtaka yung babaeng simula ngayon ay tatawagin na lang nating "babaeng maputla at emo".

so pumasok siya sa school di ba? binigyan siya ng truck ng tatay niya pare. sabi ng tatay niya "tangina mo sa'yo na tong truck ko". sabi niya "salamat tay".

pagkarating niyang school tsong, may nakita siyang lalaking mukhang bangkay pero pogi. sakto. pogi pero mukhang bangkay. sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "hot pare".

nung chem lab na ni babaeng maputla at emo, nalaman niyang lab partner niya yung poging bangkay. so nung tiningnan siya nung poging bangkay, ang asim ng mukha nito. mukhang nandiri ata kay babaeng maputla at emo.

sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina mo". sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "tangina KA". sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina NIYA oh *tumuro sa teacher nila*". sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "oo nga noh. TANGINA MO". sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina mo gago bampira ako". tapos naghubad siya ng damit at kumintab ang katawan niya kasi linagyan niya ng glitters ang abs niya kasi tigas siya at ganun na ang mga tigas ngayon na nagpupuntang emba.

so pare na in love si babaeng maputla at emo kay poging bangkay. si poging bangkay naman sige lang kasi sex din raw yun. so ayun. ang shweet shweet nila.

"eow poh... ahihihihi"

"bebe mwahugz,..... ^^,"

so tapos nun nagpunta sila sa damuhan kasi.... alam mo na. tapos sabi ni poging bangkay "ikaw na buhay ko ngayon" sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "tangina mo gago patay ka na". sabi ni poging bangkay "TANGINA KA".

tapos nagsex sila.
so basically pare yun lang yung mga importanteng nangyari sa buong storya. intense noh? kaya pala na-hook lahat ng tao. akala ko overrated. hindi pala. astig pala.


J.F. aka "bones"
Founder, T.I.I.S

crush -dave matthews band

It's crazy I'm thinking
just as long as you're around
And here I'll be dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
To each other we'll be facing
By love,
By love
We'll beat back the pain we've found
You know
I mean to tell you all the things
I've been thinking deep inside my head
with each moment the more I love you
Come on go ahead and crush me, baby.

nice song. lovin` it. :)

...

everytime i start to write, i get a freakin' mental block.

freestyle.

im writing this topless. it's so hot. pawis to death. i hate it.

i have laundry backlogs, it's haunting me in my sleep. i havent washed three baskets full of dirty clothes... that's like eeew.

so lazy these days.

i am so tired. so tired. so tired of life.

sick, sad little world.

No, you're not the first to fall apart
But always the first one to complain
You better get careful or you'll compromise everything you are

The world is a drought when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said

Leave me here in my stark raving sick sad little world

I've never had unpaid confidantes
It's more than I would care to explain
But I have an open door policy when it comes to blame

The world is a joke when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said

Leave me here in my stark raving sick sad little world

mr. ninja knows.

there is something wrong here.

do not do to others while others do unto you.
hwag mong gawin sa iba habang ginagawa sa iyo?
example. pag pinapaselos ka, wag mong pagselosin din.
kasi malamang di naman magseselos yun.
di ka naman importante.
lesson learned?
ui i hope you learned something.

happiness.

happiness is just a concept. the truth is, life is sad, and our everyday struggles is how to get out of this thing, this sadness, this melancholia.
-lav diaz (from a text message sent to me by karen amul)

the "magsalita-ka-na" ceremony

bert, our resident taga-tuguegarao guy, told me of this semi-ceremony they do with little babies when they are just about to talk:

the parents pick the most noisy/boisterous/talkative amongst the baby's godparents (if the baby is a girl, then its the noisiest godmother. if a boy, then the godfather) and this godparent will "unlock" the baby's mouth with a key... the baby should then begin to talk sooner than expected (supposedly).

soooooo among halleigh's godmothers, it's kring who's the most madaldal. that's because she's our babaeng bakla extraordinaire.

i am not superstitious but heh, we did it just for the heck of it (there is nothing to lose anyway).

we brought halleigh's chicco toy keys (a teether from her ninang donna mae and ninong ericson) to enchanted kingdom and went on with the silly ceremony. :p


that's tita faith holding halleigh, ninang kring doing the "unlocking"


halleigh: what are you grownups doing?!?!


ninang kring so hyped up!


halleigh: gimme my toy, tita faith! :D


aww halleigh, we all can't wait! speak up! :D


that's all folks.

xoxo

birthday girl

uhm. toph had me listen to this song today. i just wanna share it with my girlie girl buds who just celebrated and will celebrate their birthdays:
kring - sept 23
karen - oct 2
meann-oct 12

we are going to enchanted kingdom tomorrow. im freakin thrilled! it's gonna be halleigh's first time :)

good old days...

i was browsing through my friends list on friendster... and i came upon this photo:

(from left to right) top: jaycee, joe, joe's wifey, tolites, me and my date ian. bottom: the couple - jayR and xan

ahh. the good old days. i miss these guys. *sigh*

okaaaaaaay. ima stop reminiscin` now. time for bed.

loungin`

today was my first time to step into Seattle's Best Coffee. my coffee was courtesy of your royal gayness - joseph jake balin. i did not know what to order, but i know how i LOVE Starbuck's Coffee Jelly:


so i ordered their version of it - Java Jelly. i had a super-sized java jelly and a yummy butterscotch bar (SUGARHIGH!). the coffee was good (but i still love my starbucks coffee jelly) and yes, the conversation over coffee was interesting. :)

after coffee i met up with grace. we went to a cafe near her office. she had an uber late lunch, i couldn't eat even if i wanted to... the coffee was something else :p anway, grace and i were just talking and talking. it was as if we owned the place. we were just loungin` and i did not want to go home. it felt like home just sitting there, sharing stories with grace, listening... but yeah like all good things, you know...

and soooooooooooo here i am. i want to write. there is a lot to write about. but i found myself just sitting here, listening to this song from Finch, i did not notice i was singing my heart out to this song:

talk about eeeeemo! :p

anyhoooo, i'm so tired. my little baby's asleep, i might as well join her. gnyties y'all. xoxo.

out from slumber

wake me up when september ends...

hurray for the first day of october. tomorrow is going to be karen amul's birthday.

happy birthday kae! :D

kae's been my cee vee gee little baby. not because she's little, but because i love her :p

she's sorta ill right now, i wish she gets better right before her day comes so she can have a blast. birthdays come only once a year, so she ought to enjoy it.

she may have had too much fun from her bohol shindig... that's why she got sick. good thing she is still on vacation leave, she can rest. i miss kae... wish i'd get to see her on her birthday!

I HAVE INTERNET!

NYAHAHHAHAHAHA! AND I THOUGHT IT WAS ALREADY DISCONNECTED!
IT WAS DOWN THE ENTIRE DAY... IT WAS TEH SHITS! TELL ME ABOUT IT!

wow ngayon lang uli!

i was chatting with anne and guia. anne created a room for us. i wished cleo was online too... and after a couple of seconds, she signed in! wow! the four of us was inseparable during our college days... *happy thought*

pabo, jan2x and tegin were also online. ate gin was our comsci big sister (obviously). cleo, anne, jan2x, pabo and i were part of a group called selda katorse (i miss those guys, where are the others?)

ces (also from selda katorse) was online too, but jan2x says she's using her mobile... it's not always that we all go online at the same time. today was a happy freak accident. hehe. nice. nice.

sana maulit muli.

matanda na si francis :p

happy birthday cis! miss ka na ni halleigh, wala sya kalaro hehe :)

DADDY!

yesterday, dad called me. he sounded so urgent. he couldn't hear me well (my phonerr is teh shits) so he called my brother (we were watching Hancock) i really thought it was an emergency. it's very seldom (RARE!) that my dad calls us on the phone...

why did he call?

for the very first time, since my four-year stay here in manila, my dad is coming to visit! :)
i'm just thrilled :D i'm thanking whatever business venture he has, because i can finally see him again. i miss my daddy :)

he's gonna be here for 2 days. lucky coincidence, it's my day off! :D

i miss my dunnatsigh

i miss my bestie. it's been a while. we exchanged a couple of text messages yesterday (mind you, we are not the uber texting, mega-update buds) and i just really miss her so bad.

life's changed. we've grown older. i sure hope to God we do not grow apart (the thought scares me).

over the years, though she may not know it, she's been one of my pillars - she gives me strength and insipration. hmmm... she may be more like my guardian angel... i don't see her around much but i know she is there.

hey dons, what's up on your side of the world? i miss you. i really do.

sana dayoff na.

nalulungkot ako.
kasi malungkot paligid ko.
bakasyon si kae.
absent si bert.
suspended si allan.
nakaleave si tl.
si jan naghihintay ng text.
ako naghihintay ng sweldo.
hay.

ASAR.

YEAH. TELL ME ABOUT IT.

darkroom

woooo :P~

kohm-pyoo-tuhrr

mummie and halleighcakes

it is raining and mummie is happy.
the halleighbear is her starshine :)

and survey says...

Subject:						from a friend, who loves to answer surveys on friendster... been a while since i answered any of these so pardon me for doing this one here! :P Survey worthy.
Message:						1) Do you have a dirty mind? - *wink wink* 2) Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? - Too many effffffin' times. 3) What do you look forward to most in the upcoming months? - month 4. counting down... 4) Who are you thinking about right NOW? - an ice cold gatorade :D ah teka, WHO ba? :p 5) Who is the last male(s) you talked to on the phone? - my TL. 6) Who was the last person to make you laugh? When? - halleighbear :) just now :) 7) Have you ever been stalked? - Hahaha! not telling! 8) Do you think you will be married by the time you are 35? - i guess, i have a ring on my finger now :D 9) Last four things you drank: - pineapple juice. water. water. coke. 10) Did you wake up happy today? - yes :) 11) Do you watch TV or listen to music more? - i can only do both when the computer is on. i watch my tv shows on the internet. i get my music online. 12) Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile? - BOTH. 13) If someone cheated on you, what would you do? - give him a big fat F. F for FCK U. 14) What month is your birthday in? - july 16) Who sits next to you in chemistry? - i really can't remember. 17) Would you ever get a tattoo? - i was seriously thinking of getting one last week... 18) If you could choose to live without any emotion, would you want to? - hatred. 19) Did you sleep at least seven hours last night? - i doubt i ever will. 20) Do you think that your name defines who you are? - nawp. 21) What color eyes do you prefer the opposite gender to have? - never given much thought about the matter. brown? i'm not a fan of blue eyed dorks. 23) Would you rather it be sunny or rainy? - rainy if i don't have anything to do. sunny if i need to go places. 24) Where do you work? - cee vee gee. 25) Where is the person you like now? - INDIA. haha. 26) Last person you text messaged? - allan 27) Who was the last person to call you? - TL Jay 28) What are you doing right now? - stumbling upon webpages. chatting with kae and grace. answering this series of nonsense, why the hell am i doing this? :p 29) Next time you travel out of the country where will it be to? - next time? there has been no first time yet. where? take me to where the flavor is. haha. i don't know. europe? 30) What color are your eyes? - hazelnut brown. LOL. imbento! 31) Are you allergic to anything? - rommel assiong? not anymore. 32) Are you dating the last person you kissed? - yap :p . 34) What color is your hair? - caramel brown? haha! 35) Who knows a secret or two about you? - my mafia sidekicks. hell why would i tell you? :p 36) Did you have a nap today? - noerr 37) Whats on your mind? - a whole effin' LOT! 38) Where did you get the shirt you're wearing now? - ukay ukay :D 39) Have you ever wanted to be a teacher? - never crossed my mind. 40) Where were you 1 hour ago? - here at home still. 42) Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than a friend? - yeah. 44) Have you kissed anyone in the past week? - yef, my fam :p 45) what cunt? - err next question. 46) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? - paper! 47) If you took a drug test would you pass it? - yup :p 48) Is tomorrow night going to be a good night? - i hope so! 49) Are you comfortable with answering personal questions? - sureee. bring it! 50) When is the last time you cried? - coupla days ago.

hay.

gusto ko mag yosi talaga.
pahingi naman ng yosi.

little miss milkmaid

ang kyut kyut talaga ng halleighbugoi ko!!! :)

para kay kring na dating bading...

of plastic cash and toilet papers

my little halleighbear contemplating what in the world these are used for...

rock on, kiddos :)

Kids Songs Sung By Rock Stars


w00t!!! haha :p

downloadin like crazy

we're kinda runnin' late payin' the internet/phone bills. so right now we're downloadin' like crazy. :p

i remember coming across a site which featured rock songs turned into lullabies so just recently, toph and i started searching for those tracks. just a handful are seeding the tracks/albums on torrent but there is a truth to the saying no pain, no gain *wink*

while you're doing whatever it is you're doing, check this out.

okay folks, back to downloading movies and songs :D

i puffy heart the internet! <3

come on now tell me...

it was one gloomy day. the place feels familiar but it looks eerily different. i saw my friend guia walking through the hallway, something tells me this was her house. she did not talk to me. she had sad eyes but she held her chin up. i explored the seemingly huge abode, found another hallway which had numerous refrigerators lined up on one side... i opened one of them and it was filled with all sorts of pastries, i felt like i was alice in wonderland. i looked around and then there were a couple of people around, they were opening the other fridges , scavenging food. they were hoarding, trying to get as much food as they can. it was odd. i looked at the fridge infront of me, all those sweets taunting me... i took one slice of what seemed to be a chocolate cake, only it looked like a pie, or a sandwich. i really dont know. i took a bite and it tasted good.

i got out and looked at the sky, it was so cloudy and it seemed like it was going to rain. a bunch of people caught my eye, they were standing outside a bank's entrance. something tells me my sister's there so i walked towards the bank then someone walked past me, pushing me to the side. i was going to make a remark but he pulled out his gun. i panicked. i dropped to the ground, kept an eye on my sister. everyone was his target. he pointed his gun at one guy then the other. i tried to signal my sister to duck but this hooligan saw me. he grabbed me by the shirt, i was so freakin' scared that i'm pretty sure i would wet my pants (trust me, i did not) he said something i could not understand. i looked at my sister and signaled her to run. after i did, there was a sudden turn of events: he dropped his gun and the bank's security officer handcuffed him. the crowd were circling him like voltures, wanting a piece of him. i couldn't find my sister then, i tried to look for her but something else was happening. from the bank there were a mob of crazy policemen holding out baseball bats, they broke the glass door entrance and started to chase away the people. it seemed that he was on this handcuffed guy's side. it was a riot. i started to run...

i ran as fast as i could. i covered a good distance but i was still running. as i was running, i passed by people who were also running from something. their faces were panic-striken. and they were running towards where i came from. wherever it was i was going, something was happening there. more and more people were running from that direction. i had to stop. i saw what was happening. it was like stepping into a parallel universe. the same riot. the same policemen. it was crazy.

i stood aside, tried to stand near a lamp post.

i had to breathe from all the running.

then i woke up.

tell me why i am having these dreams!!! i don't really dream as much but i've been having weird dreams lately. i got online today and i found guia online. she told me her boyfriend broke up with her and i was surprised. i did not see it coming. i told her someone told me she broke up with her boyfriend but i thought i was told in a dream and i did not believe it. anyway, she told me it's true. they called it quits and she's trying to be okay. i remembered my dream (see above) and told her about it (left out the riot part). she was amazed that i sensed she was sad, i told her she has to be the guia in my dream: sad yet still has her chin up. yup, she is trying.

wish me sweetdreams for later. kktnxbai! XD

tell me what it means.

i had a dream last night.

i was scratching my head. you know how it is when your scalp itches and you just need to scratch and scratch? it was like that... it was so itchy and i had to shave my head bald. i run my fingers through my head, hair used to be here i said to myself... then my fingers came across a scar, then another, then another. i took a mirror and looked at my head. i had wounds. it was as if someone bore a hole to my skull.

there were 5 wounds. all of them of the same sizes. little red perfect circles, forming the 5 points of a star.

wtf. i scratched my head again. this time there were flake-like things that came off. GREEN. at first they looked like ticks. there were a lot of them on one side of my head. i looked at them closely and they looked like microscopic green scorpions. it was freaking scary.

these creatures was making my head itch. it was as if they were sucking my sanity.

i scratched and scratched, one by one they came off.

then i woke up.

trippy lullaby

the toph downloaded the album for the donners and she was more than pleased! :D

ngayon at kailanman

sana meron akong kayosi.
NGAYON.
kailangan ko ng kayosi.
NGAYON.

iba yung pakiramdam ko. parang napaglipasan na ako ng panahon. pakiramdam ko antanda ko na. sobrang dami kong namimiss. ibang iba na ang buhay ko. andami nang nagbago ngunit subalit datapwat eto pa rin ako tila ba'y nakapako sa kinaroroonan ko, kinakalawang. pag tumagal pa sa ganito, mawawalan na ng silbi.

saan na ako? saan ba direksyon ko? saan ba ako papunta? teka, nawawala na ata ako...

ano ba gusto ko? ano ba plano ko?

ewan.


ang hirap pala magtagalog. hey, i tried.