homeward bound.

i have missed you my cagayan de oro, but i never wanted to come back for this reason.

daddy, i will miss you forever.

people stay in cagayan... (mukanta ang nakabalo)

hello cee dee oh. i miss you so. you've changed so much in the span of five years. i feel like such a stranger in my own hometown... we don't live in our ancestral home anymore. we sold the house almost two years ago. i miss my old bedroom. i miss mom's garden. heck, i even miss our fishmonger neighbors! everything is just so different now... the streets and the neighborhood aren't so familiar, and the people too!
the new house is nice. homey. i love it that it is so cozy. i love it that i came home to the smell mom's newly baked goodies. i love it that we're all together for Christmas for the first time after 5years. i hope The Toph was here to experience home. at least there is a home, i keep reminding myself. but today, i got to see old faces and somehow, i got that sense of cagayan de oro back. i feel like i belong again. it does feel so wonderful to be back. oh, what'd i give to stay!

for some reason...

wala lang. naalala ko nanood ako ng tv, napahinto ako sa isang channel kung san pinapalabas ang live from abbey road... napahinto ako dahil sa kanta. live. nakapanindig balahibo. kanta pala yun ni alanis morissette. perfect.

Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face

Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder

How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet

Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud

I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem, why are you crying

Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are
If you're perfect

dang it!

after a very long time, i got to see dang again!
i was lucky i'm on cee vee gee hiatus ^_^
happy. just like the good ol' days.

i have a lot of nothing to say.

the mummy.

things i have in the closet

(just shared this with kae. just need to document it. haha!)
i will always be emo.
even if it is just a closet thing. hihihi
:)

back to the CGY!

I can NOT wait to spend Christmas and New Year in Cagayan de Oro!!!

hope the toph can come with us, sana pwede mag leave. :)

sana din may pera nako para makapagbook na ng ticket... habang mura pa. hehe.

after ondoy.

thank you to those who sent monetary assistance -- auntie lu, veekee, and anne marie. we were able to buy food and other necessities. it was able to get us by and we still have something left for future use (for the next disaster, perhaps?) i really, really appreciate it. ♥

the house is clean now. thanks to ate carmen and her goons. thanks to gemma, too. some shit needs to be sorted out but yea, maybe later.

steve is alive. he may have lost a couple of limbs but yes, he survived. :)

my shelves had given up. i have no more books to store on them anyway. i will miss my books. i would have to begin booksale scavenger hunts again to find king, carcaterra, and harris. but like what daddy said -- don't worry about your things, you can always replace them. what's important is, you're all okay. so yea, i'm gonna have my collection back soon (hopefully).


God is always good to me. thank You for always watching over me and my family. i still have it good. i cried watching the news. i'm so grateful for this life. i pray that the people who were devastated by this calamity will be given strength to start from scratch. i pray they will still have a reason to smile, to still be inspired despite all the ruckus and the destruction the typhoons had caused... afterall, hope springs eternal. ^_^ oh and yea -- bless the hearts of those who continue to help out the victims. mabuhay kayo!

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are they who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.
Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the pure of heart, for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called children of God.
Blessed are they who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Gospel of St. Matthew 5:3-10

stranded!

STEVE IS FLOATING!
news from my sweets. omg. steve, my trusty fridge! i hope he did not drown, oh please be alive when all this shit's goin to be over!

OUR HOUSE IS DESTROYED!
my books :( my ps2 :( the dvds too! :'(
the tv got saved. and yea, you heard about steve...

but everyone is fine, thank goodness.
more importantly, HALLE is fine!

i told aries it is the end of the world. not true, he says 2012 pa daw.
this is like, what? the third time i got stranded at the office within my 5-year stint at the ceeveegee. milenyo. frank. and what's the name of this crazy bagyo?
thank you to marieness, tim and om g. being stranded was not too bad.

i wanna go home. *sniff*

the toph.

All the man I am
You are the reason for me, you help me understand
Ill be your shelter from the rain that never ends
Girl, youve always got a friend in me

All the love we had
I shouldve known our love was older than the past
Throwing my life away on songs I never heard
Just the speaking of a special word
I made you die inside but you loved me

And dont believe the world
No, the world cant give us paradise
When you make your love to me
Til I just could not see the light

As long as I got you
As long as I got me
As long as we got you and I

I wont let you down
No better love will be there when you turn around
Ill be living for you till the ocean turns to sand
There will never be any man
Could love you just the way that I love you....

So dont believe the world
No the world cant give us paradise
In the eye within the storm
When I just could not make it through the night

As long as I got you
As long as I got me
As long as we got you and I

So dont believe the world
No the world cant give us paradise
In the eye within the storm
When I just could not make it through the night

As long as I got you
As long as I got me
As long as we got you and I

♥

reklamador... dor... dor...

andami kong reklamo.
as in.
gusto kong gumawa ng litanya ng mga reklamo ko sa mundo.
di ko alam san ako magsisimula.
nakakasawa shet.
sige hwag na muna ako magsalita.
bigyan pa natin ng onti pang panahon.
pag di na matiis...

Intolerance.

I don't want to be hostile. I don't want to be dismal. But I don't want to rot in an apathetic existence either. See, I want to believe you, and I want to trust and I want to have faith to put away the dagger. But you lie, cheat, and steal. And yet I tolerate you. Veil of virtue hung to hide your method while I smile and laugh and dance and sing your praise and glory. Shroud of virtue hung to mask your stigma as I smile and laugh and dance and sing your glory while you lie, cheat, and steal. How can I tolerate you? Our guilt, our blame, I've been far too sympathetic. Our blood, our fault. I've been far too sympathetic. I am not innocent. You are not innocent. No one is innocent. I will no longer tolerate you. Even if I must go down beside you. Because, No one is innocent.

http://www.toolband.com/album/lyrics/undertow.html

Truth, The Bitter Truth

how can you go so low?!

ganun pala yun. hindi ko alam. pasensya.