wow ngayon lang uli!

i was chatting with anne and guia. anne created a room for us. i wished cleo was online too... and after a couple of seconds, she signed in! wow! the four of us was inseparable during our college days... *happy thought*

pabo, jan2x and tegin were also online. ate gin was our comsci big sister (obviously). cleo, anne, jan2x, pabo and i were part of a group called selda katorse (i miss those guys, where are the others?)

ces (also from selda katorse) was online too, but jan2x says she's using her mobile... it's not always that we all go online at the same time. today was a happy freak accident. hehe. nice. nice.

sana maulit muli.

matanda na si francis :p

happy birthday cis! miss ka na ni halleigh, wala sya kalaro hehe :)

DADDY!

yesterday, dad called me. he sounded so urgent. he couldn't hear me well (my phonerr is teh shits) so he called my brother (we were watching Hancock) i really thought it was an emergency. it's very seldom (RARE!) that my dad calls us on the phone...

why did he call?

for the very first time, since my four-year stay here in manila, my dad is coming to visit! :)
i'm just thrilled :D i'm thanking whatever business venture he has, because i can finally see him again. i miss my daddy :)

he's gonna be here for 2 days. lucky coincidence, it's my day off! :D

i miss my dunnatsigh

i miss my bestie. it's been a while. we exchanged a couple of text messages yesterday (mind you, we are not the uber texting, mega-update buds) and i just really miss her so bad.

life's changed. we've grown older. i sure hope to God we do not grow apart (the thought scares me).

over the years, though she may not know it, she's been one of my pillars - she gives me strength and insipration. hmmm... she may be more like my guardian angel... i don't see her around much but i know she is there.

hey dons, what's up on your side of the world? i miss you. i really do.

sana dayoff na.

nalulungkot ako.
kasi malungkot paligid ko.
bakasyon si kae.
absent si bert.
suspended si allan.
nakaleave si tl.
si jan naghihintay ng text.
ako naghihintay ng sweldo.
hay.

ASAR.

YEAH. TELL ME ABOUT IT.

darkroom

woooo :P~

kohm-pyoo-tuhrr

mummie and halleighcakes

it is raining and mummie is happy.
the halleighbear is her starshine :)

and survey says...

Subject:						from a friend, who loves to answer surveys on friendster... been a while since i answered any of these so pardon me for doing this one here! :P Survey worthy.
Message:						1) Do you have a dirty mind? - *wink wink* 2) Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? - Too many effffffin' times. 3) What do you look forward to most in the upcoming months? - month 4. counting down... 4) Who are you thinking about right NOW? - an ice cold gatorade :D ah teka, WHO ba? :p 5) Who is the last male(s) you talked to on the phone? - my TL. 6) Who was the last person to make you laugh? When? - halleighbear :) just now :) 7) Have you ever been stalked? - Hahaha! not telling! 8) Do you think you will be married by the time you are 35? - i guess, i have a ring on my finger now :D 9) Last four things you drank: - pineapple juice. water. water. coke. 10) Did you wake up happy today? - yes :) 11) Do you watch TV or listen to music more? - i can only do both when the computer is on. i watch my tv shows on the internet. i get my music online. 12) Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile? - BOTH. 13) If someone cheated on you, what would you do? - give him a big fat F. F for FCK U. 14) What month is your birthday in? - july 16) Who sits next to you in chemistry? - i really can't remember. 17) Would you ever get a tattoo? - i was seriously thinking of getting one last week... 18) If you could choose to live without any emotion, would you want to? - hatred. 19) Did you sleep at least seven hours last night? - i doubt i ever will. 20) Do you think that your name defines who you are? - nawp. 21) What color eyes do you prefer the opposite gender to have? - never given much thought about the matter. brown? i'm not a fan of blue eyed dorks. 23) Would you rather it be sunny or rainy? - rainy if i don't have anything to do. sunny if i need to go places. 24) Where do you work? - cee vee gee. 25) Where is the person you like now? - INDIA. haha. 26) Last person you text messaged? - allan 27) Who was the last person to call you? - TL Jay 28) What are you doing right now? - stumbling upon webpages. chatting with kae and grace. answering this series of nonsense, why the hell am i doing this? :p 29) Next time you travel out of the country where will it be to? - next time? there has been no first time yet. where? take me to where the flavor is. haha. i don't know. europe? 30) What color are your eyes? - hazelnut brown. LOL. imbento! 31) Are you allergic to anything? - rommel assiong? not anymore. 32) Are you dating the last person you kissed? - yap :p . 34) What color is your hair? - caramel brown? haha! 35) Who knows a secret or two about you? - my mafia sidekicks. hell why would i tell you? :p 36) Did you have a nap today? - noerr 37) Whats on your mind? - a whole effin' LOT! 38) Where did you get the shirt you're wearing now? - ukay ukay :D 39) Have you ever wanted to be a teacher? - never crossed my mind. 40) Where were you 1 hour ago? - here at home still. 42) Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than a friend? - yeah. 44) Have you kissed anyone in the past week? - yef, my fam :p 45) what cunt? - err next question. 46) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? - paper! 47) If you took a drug test would you pass it? - yup :p 48) Is tomorrow night going to be a good night? - i hope so! 49) Are you comfortable with answering personal questions? - sureee. bring it! 50) When is the last time you cried? - coupla days ago.

hay.

gusto ko mag yosi talaga.
pahingi naman ng yosi.

little miss milkmaid

ang kyut kyut talaga ng halleighbugoi ko!!! :)

para kay kring na dating bading...

of plastic cash and toilet papers

my little halleighbear contemplating what in the world these are used for...

rock on, kiddos :)

Kids Songs Sung By Rock Stars


w00t!!! haha :p

downloadin like crazy

we're kinda runnin' late payin' the internet/phone bills. so right now we're downloadin' like crazy. :p

i remember coming across a site which featured rock songs turned into lullabies so just recently, toph and i started searching for those tracks. just a handful are seeding the tracks/albums on torrent but there is a truth to the saying no pain, no gain *wink*

while you're doing whatever it is you're doing, check this out.

okay folks, back to downloading movies and songs :D

i puffy heart the internet! <3

come on now tell me...

it was one gloomy day. the place feels familiar but it looks eerily different. i saw my friend guia walking through the hallway, something tells me this was her house. she did not talk to me. she had sad eyes but she held her chin up. i explored the seemingly huge abode, found another hallway which had numerous refrigerators lined up on one side... i opened one of them and it was filled with all sorts of pastries, i felt like i was alice in wonderland. i looked around and then there were a couple of people around, they were opening the other fridges , scavenging food. they were hoarding, trying to get as much food as they can. it was odd. i looked at the fridge infront of me, all those sweets taunting me... i took one slice of what seemed to be a chocolate cake, only it looked like a pie, or a sandwich. i really dont know. i took a bite and it tasted good.

i got out and looked at the sky, it was so cloudy and it seemed like it was going to rain. a bunch of people caught my eye, they were standing outside a bank's entrance. something tells me my sister's there so i walked towards the bank then someone walked past me, pushing me to the side. i was going to make a remark but he pulled out his gun. i panicked. i dropped to the ground, kept an eye on my sister. everyone was his target. he pointed his gun at one guy then the other. i tried to signal my sister to duck but this hooligan saw me. he grabbed me by the shirt, i was so freakin' scared that i'm pretty sure i would wet my pants (trust me, i did not) he said something i could not understand. i looked at my sister and signaled her to run. after i did, there was a sudden turn of events: he dropped his gun and the bank's security officer handcuffed him. the crowd were circling him like voltures, wanting a piece of him. i couldn't find my sister then, i tried to look for her but something else was happening. from the bank there were a mob of crazy policemen holding out baseball bats, they broke the glass door entrance and started to chase away the people. it seemed that he was on this handcuffed guy's side. it was a riot. i started to run...

i ran as fast as i could. i covered a good distance but i was still running. as i was running, i passed by people who were also running from something. their faces were panic-striken. and they were running towards where i came from. wherever it was i was going, something was happening there. more and more people were running from that direction. i had to stop. i saw what was happening. it was like stepping into a parallel universe. the same riot. the same policemen. it was crazy.

i stood aside, tried to stand near a lamp post.

i had to breathe from all the running.

then i woke up.

tell me why i am having these dreams!!! i don't really dream as much but i've been having weird dreams lately. i got online today and i found guia online. she told me her boyfriend broke up with her and i was surprised. i did not see it coming. i told her someone told me she broke up with her boyfriend but i thought i was told in a dream and i did not believe it. anyway, she told me it's true. they called it quits and she's trying to be okay. i remembered my dream (see above) and told her about it (left out the riot part). she was amazed that i sensed she was sad, i told her she has to be the guia in my dream: sad yet still has her chin up. yup, she is trying.

wish me sweetdreams for later. kktnxbai! XD

tell me what it means.

i had a dream last night.

i was scratching my head. you know how it is when your scalp itches and you just need to scratch and scratch? it was like that... it was so itchy and i had to shave my head bald. i run my fingers through my head, hair used to be here i said to myself... then my fingers came across a scar, then another, then another. i took a mirror and looked at my head. i had wounds. it was as if someone bore a hole to my skull.

there were 5 wounds. all of them of the same sizes. little red perfect circles, forming the 5 points of a star.

wtf. i scratched my head again. this time there were flake-like things that came off. GREEN. at first they looked like ticks. there were a lot of them on one side of my head. i looked at them closely and they looked like microscopic green scorpions. it was freaking scary.

these creatures was making my head itch. it was as if they were sucking my sanity.

i scratched and scratched, one by one they came off.

then i woke up.

trippy lullaby

the toph downloaded the album for the donners and she was more than pleased! :D

ngayon at kailanman

sana meron akong kayosi.
NGAYON.
kailangan ko ng kayosi.
NGAYON.

iba yung pakiramdam ko. parang napaglipasan na ako ng panahon. pakiramdam ko antanda ko na. sobrang dami kong namimiss. ibang iba na ang buhay ko. andami nang nagbago ngunit subalit datapwat eto pa rin ako tila ba'y nakapako sa kinaroroonan ko, kinakalawang. pag tumagal pa sa ganito, mawawalan na ng silbi.

saan na ako? saan ba direksyon ko? saan ba ako papunta? teka, nawawala na ata ako...

ano ba gusto ko? ano ba plano ko?

ewan.


ang hirap pala magtagalog. hey, i tried.

everyone has their own

faceyourmanga

friendster, multiply, myspace... i think every icon on your typical social cybernetwork was done using faceyourmanga. so i said to myself: if you can't beat them, join them! eto na ang faceyourmanga ko! hahaha :P

shit wala akong magawa pakshet.

stuck.

ORESTES
-a perfect circle

Metaphor for a missing moment
Pull me in to your perfect circle

One womb
One shame
One resolve

Liberate this will
To release us all

Gotta cut away, clear away
Slip away and sever this
Umbilical residue,
Keeping me from killing you

And from pulling you down with me here,
I can almost hear you scream

Give me one more medicated peaceful moment
Give me one more medicated peaceful moment

And I don't wanna feel this
Overwhelming hostility
I don't wanna feel this
Overwhelming hostility

Gotta cut away, clear away
Slip away and sever this
Umbilical residue

Gotta cut away, clear away
Slip away and sever this
Umbilical residue,
Keeping me from killing you

Slip away and sever this

Keeping me from killing you

i've been singing this song for a couple of days now. i can't get it off of my head. i don't mind. i love this song. :)

disaster.

there is just too much to write about.
there is just too much on my mind right now.
there is just too much.
too much.

my dose of trippy.

experimental rock.
just hit PLAY ALL on the Chart ;)

the donners gots herself a new hobby.

you know that nifty button ontop of blogger saying Next Blog> ?
yeah, THAT button. i love it :p it takes me to different places and take a peek into other people's thoughts or perhaps show you how they live their lives...
i've stumbled upon interesting reads, insanely mundane stories and grotesque topics. you wouldn't believe what other people are writing about! *wink wink*

i bookmark most of the blogs i like, my browser has a list of them. well maybe if i feel like sharing, i will post them here (it is sooo my alibi. i'm just lazy) :P

and i believe i've already told you guys about garageband.com...
indie freakin' music man!!!
okay today, i listened to these guys:
Stereo Apollo
Josh Woodward
The Scarlets
Brown Unfriendly Town
there are a lot of great music out there, EXPLORE! seek and you will find!
haha :P

i'm totally hooked music surfing and blog surfing!

well, there's still girl watching during break-o'clocks at the office...

GOOGLE EFFIN CHROME!!!

ZOMG THE GOOGLE CHROME BROWSER IS HERE AND I CANNOT DOWNLOAD AND INSTALL IT ON THIS COMPUTER!!!

I HAVE GOT TO TRY IT! >_<

happy and gay

my shift starts from 4pm to 1am... but i did not want to go home yet. going home early means i have to take a cab which is not one of my options (i am trying to save bucks. yeah sue me for being such a cheapskate)...

...so i lingered around the office. i barged into ROMMEL ASIONG's calls. which was kind of fun (NOT!) HAHA! i asked my team lead if he finds himself smiling when listening to rommel's calls and i was not surprised when he confirmed it with a nod. :p anyway, it got so boring so i went hoppity-hop-hop towards jakee's station and just observed his royal gayness. of course there was your usual smalltalk on the side but me thinks i zoned out a couple of times (sorry jakee, i was sleepy!) but ALAS! the hours breezed through and before i knew it, it was 5am. time for jakee to log out! haha :)

the jakee and the donners did their royal rounds around the production floor before they finally left the building.

it was almost sunrise when we got out. we couldn't resist the call of McDees!!! (i am speaking for myself. i was thinking of THE taro pie but ended up with a large order of fries!) there was no smoking area... instead of dining in, we had our grub to go. we improvised!

the jakee and the donners strut their royal asses outside of mcdonald's and without a care in the world, sat down at the entrance-way steps... enjoying their happymeals with a ciggie... mmm! :D

well. the jakee and i have the tendency to overtalk. we talked about a lot of stuff and did a bit of girl watching (i was eyeing girls' boobies. i dunno about jake, i think he was transfixed at men's asses) *giggles* i did not realize it was so late until allan (king, not K.) went down for cigs, it was his lunchbreak. his shift starts when i log off so heh go figure. :p

the ride home was the best. ^_^

i love jakee in all his royal hom0-ness.

thanks jakee, my day was awesome. credits to the dash of gay powder you sprinkled on me! aww! :)

kitakits sa yosihan!

today is gonna be our first day in production. it was a fun training month, we met new additions to our team. our tl calls the new team, camaro+!
haha :p as much as we don't want the transition week to last, like all good things it must come to an end.

so hello to taking in calls for the whole duration of the shift; bye bye to the friends who became so dear -- goodluck to tl janet who's gonna be helping out with the transition team while waiting for her agents finish cct/pst... congrats to archie and john, they will be molded into awesome trainers for the new program... and ewan ko kay allan na hanggang ngayon ay di pa rin ata gumagana ang login so di parin pde mag calls, kitakits nalang sa yosihan!

i had so much fun during training, i know i'm gonna miss it so bad.

it is september (ber... berr... berrr....)

and it is almost Christmas time :)

but before that, it's gonna be...

youtubin`

nyahhahaha.

i <3 youtube!

it started with kae giving me a link. then i found my way to mark escueta's channel on youtube *winkwink*

so i found myself thinking -- why not do the soundtrippin' with the visuals?

sound trippin.

thank you grace for pointing the right direction to www.garageband.com!

i was looking up the song kaye had been talking about (Mr. Wannabe Lonely by Drew Stiles) and i found it alright... and then some. hehe. i was just surfing through the songs and artists on a huge database of indie music and i was awestruck. i wanted to make a neon sign saying, I WANT TO LIVE HERE. hahaha!

what a way to spend the day off :)